Is this normal??

is it normal for someone who was abused as a child, to crave more abuse years later? like when something goes wrong, you want someone to hurt you badly? whenever i get down, or feel like i messed up, i get a really huge craving for that...just wondering if that's at all normal..

Do you crave physical or mental abuse? I can understand why somebody abused physically or mentally in their childhood would 'like' to be abused mentally in their adult-years - But ONLY mentally.

no, unfortunately physicaly.. like, when something really hurts me, mentally.. since i can't handle that, for some reason i start wanting physical pain.. but cutting doesn't always help.. i want someone else to hurt me, to punish me..

Hi there, this sounds familiar, but in a more subconscience way.

I have borderline pd, and I found myself going from one abusive relationship to another, like I had a sign on my head. Abuse me!!!!
But I get enough, and it's over. I think I want to help them change. Like I wanted my parents to change. It's deep.

You might ask this question in Borderline forum., I bet you'll get some responses. Not that you have bpd.

hey thanks for the reply

i don't usually get into abusive relationships(well, i don't get into many relationships at all.. guess i'm kinda/very avoidant you could say).. but when i make a mistake, ie upset them or something.. i find myself wanting them to just unleash and beat me senseless.. though i've never had that really happen.. and i'm afraid to mention that, ya know..
and i will go post it again in the BPD forum, thank you

sorry to double post, but.. i whent to the bpd forum.. and read about what it is.. which i've never really done before.. and it pretty much describes me perfectly

Hi back, oh don't bum.

Tho the reasons for having it are not what we wanted. There is hope and much support here.

Knowledge is power