Noone understands

You guys can call me H. I recently, around two months ago, ran away from my parents. I am legally eighteen but they have abused me and not really for anything important either. I was beaten until I was almost unconscious ( with a broom till it broke and choked and coat hangers and shoes) for not knowing where I put my coat. I am from Somalia so it is very acceptable to beat your kids but there have been several occasions where I have felt like I was close to dying. My mother has choked me for saying "whatever" and I was a pretty good kid. Good grades, good friends, didnt really yell back or anything. I am staying with my friend now and I feel like such a hobo and sometimes she annoys me and then I feel like a bitch because she and her family are sorta supporting me right now and without them I would have committed suicide. I see two different therapists and overall I see them three times a week ( it might be more) and I have been diagnosed by both of them as having

Post
Traumatic
Stress
Syndrome

and I feel depressed and bipolar and I am always considering suicide and people at school ( im in highschool still) are getting paid to spy on me by my family. I had to go to court to get my Order of Protection otherwise known as a restraining order and it was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Its not even being 40 and screwed up of the past. This isnt my past. Its my present.

Does anyone ache like I ache? My heart always hurts and I hurt and i'm getting physical hurts like back pain and my joints hurt and I find myself not eating. I've lost six pounds through this ordeal. I really want to be a normal teenager again. Help, please.

~ Crywolf

Some people enter this world in unfortunate circumstances - It is just 'luck'. You are one of these people. However, you are already beginning to make amends. Getting away from your parents was the first step to a better life for you. It will take a long time and there will be set-backs but you can prosper in this world my friend.


Right now you have an abuse-free life. In my mind your goal should be to finish school, obtain a job, and get your own accomodation. Whether you like that idea or not you must still develop a plan ffor your life right now - A Positive plan.

I had the physical fallout from PTSD as well; make sure you have painkillers and use them wisely. You kind of have to train your body to calm down; it takes time, but it gets better. Everything gets better. You've made a good start in dealing with your trauma. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. You're going to get stronger everyday. One day you'll be happy.