Dealing with past bullying

Yeah, he kind of was. He never seemed to protect me and Mum had to confront him several times, trying me him see reason. Nothing she, Dad or anyone else could do made any difference, hence the near-nervous breakdown. He seemed to feel that keeping me out the playground from time to time was enough (which it wasn't) and even told my mum straight out, with inside support, that it was my fault for not having friends and being a loner. Maybe I blamed myself because he didn't do anything to help or stop it.

jasmin wrote:sometimes I'd like to understand why some people who hurt me did it too, but maybe we wouldn't like what they have to say.

I'm sorry to hear that others hurt you as well. I feel the same way. I'll like to know and yet I don't. Sometimes, given the years and the distance I've come since then, I feel that it doesn't really matter and yet, deep inside, I feel it does.
I don't know. Like I said, it's all in the past and I'm mostly over it, which is something.

He was incompetent... He and the bullies are responsible for what they did, it's not someone else's fault.
Some people can't see what they've done wrong and they can't become better human beings, but who knows what the bullies are like now. I doubt they've changed much, though.

Yeah, I suppose. I'd certainly like to know what the bullies are doing now or what they've become. I'm with you there, I don't think they've changed much, but you never know...
Thanks for your support, jasmin. I think I'm starting to understand a little bit more now. That's a good thing, to be sure

Heh, you're welcome. Talking about it does help a little

Yeah, you're right. Since I've been talking about it, I feel better (although I am technically telling a bunch of strangers my own personal problems). Still, I'm thankful for all the support!

Well, these forums are anonymous, so it's ok.

Yeah, I suppose so. If you say so jasmin, I'll believe you and go with it.

jasmin wrote:The head of the school was basically a bully too, just older. No kid deserves that. You know, sometimes I'd like to understand why some people who hurt me did it too, but maybe we wouldn't like what they have to say.

Yeah, because it will be a load of crap that makes no sense. I mean, I cannot believe they will come with a better explaination than " I was egoistic".

Maybe. We'll never know though, but the 'I was egoistic' excuse would show itself somehow, no matter what they said. Most bullies are self-centred, which explains they do what they do.

Yep, head too far up their own you-know-whats.