Hate Toward Bullies

I hate bullies and I want to kill them, but I don't do it because I don't want to go to prison. I don't feel like the risk is worth the reward, but I believe that I would do it if I knew that I could get away with it. It seems to me that most people think I'm sick for feeling that way, but I don't understand their reasoning for thinking that. I don't understand why they feel sympathy for bullies.

I'm posting this in the hope that someone will respond who's able to relate to me on this matter. I'm not looking for a debate about it, so to anyone who may be thinking about trying to start one with me, you'll just be wasting your time. I'd possibly be willing to acknowledge different points of views, but if I feel like it's going in the direction of a debate, I'll stop responding. I also won't respond if those views are too frustrating.

I used to feel similarly but over the years I've softened a lot and do feel some sympathy towards them when the idea of harming them comes to mind.
Although they didn't take my feelings into account when they were bullying me (well.. they did but they enjoyed the fact that they were hurting me) - I'm not the same as them and that's why i'm not a bully.
The idea of causing pain to another person is really difficult for me and i wouldn't be able to do it without feeling intense guilt and regret over it afterwards.

I respect that. I don't relate to it, but I respect it.

I just have one question for you. If I were to kill a bully who had tortured me mentally, would you want me in prison? I say "mentally" because there's a particular person who stands out above the rest and that was his usual method of bullying, plus the most effective one.

Let's pretend that you knew what he had done for a fact.

^^ personally no I wouldn't, but then again I don't run the system; the system that gives power to the abusers and blame-shames the victim, go figure.