Now what?

So basically I'm a 21 year old at university. I've been thinking about how I was treated at school and I've come to the conclusion that I was bullied. I had two best friends at school and we were very close and we shared some great times. But there were other times too where they would tease me and keep goading me until I would be in tears. This would happen 3/4 times a year and I would pray every night that the next day wouldn't be the next time it would happen. The problem was/is that we are still regarded as friends by each other and by my family. Although I refrain from speaking to one out of the two (the other other one just followed him along and is kind at heart). The one who was really bad still tries to contact me and arrange to meet up and thinks we're friends but I'm never the same with him now I've realised how he made me feel. To be honest the fact I'm here now 5 years later reflects I must feel wrong done by. After writing this I do feel slightly better but would do I do now? I can't bare the thought of telling him how he made me feel or telling my parents what happened to him so what do I do? Can I just cease all communication??

The reason it's come up now so late is because the way I feel and act in fear I've realised is stopping me from living life how I want too. Now I know he's gone can I stop pretending everything's ok by pretending he doesn't exist? Or do I have to say something to make it truly go away?
Thanks