keep going over the fact ive been bullied...

and i should just get over it shouldnt i?

heres a quick rundown: was bullied by my mum & nan (for being fat, i wasnt i was only 5 how can you be fat at 5?) but they did that to all of my sisters. i refused to go to nursey school, started primary school at 4/5 was bullied throughout the hole time i was there until i was 11, ny everyone, including teachers who didnt like me because i would always say i was ill to get out of going.

started scondary school was bullied by everyone including my 'friends' until i left at 15 really, didnt do any exams apart from 2 as i was then sent to a school for people who had been bullied!

left school, started to be bullied at college! stood up for myself then stopped going in really..... had over 17 jobs, bullied in 90% of them, one so bad that i was so frightened i rushed outside and threw up

and basically i honestly dont know why. yeh i was chubby, but that was it really, but everyone just seems to want to pick on me?!

ive seen so many people and when i tell them what happened they all say, but your stunning looking, they must be jealous of you! but honestly, i cant see that myself! i mean REALLY?!
i am SUCH a nice person all i want to do is help people, and animals! i honestly dont see why people are horrible to me!!?

maybe i am TOO nice?

even after i lost the weight, i still get bullied! i never had trouble with guys, they all seem to love me for some unknown reason. i only like guy mates now aswell.

but over the past 5 years being depressed, will another illness that needed medication and now i am agrophoibc, ive gained alot of weight and now i feel like crap everyday!

i refuse to go to the town of wher ei went to school as i am SO frightened of seeing any of the people who picked on me, even though i am talking about 7 years ago! i havent been back since................ im sick of all of this!

I would never insult you or harm you if I met you. Such actions are unknown to my nature and - like you - I always strive to be nice to people. I also adore animals of all sorts: From protozoans to mammals, with fish, reptiles, amphibians, and birds in between. Animals are wonderful.


Agoraphobia is something that isn't good. I was that way when I was younger and I remember one time I locked myself in the toilet at home because my mother wanted me to go outside to buy something. I eventually overcame that but it took about three years of walking with my head down, afraid to look at people.


Our lives appear to be mirrored somewhat actually for I now only hang around with the opposite sex (girls, for me). Many people attempt to instil their own views on other people. It is then up to you and I to remain solid in our own views and remain confident that the way we live our lives is correct for us.


Sweet dreams my dear and take care,
Kevin.

hiya, sorry it took so long for me to reply, i forgot i had posted on here!

i just read your website, i am also the youngest of 4..... and my lot are all girls!

thats sounds odd slighty mirrored! my birthdays just after yours to!

i try and think now before i go out (i sometimes mange the shops and things) 'i will only meet nice people' and the other day this really lovely old lady started chattin to me! it really cheered me up!

oh i also used to do creative writing!

Hey again,

You 'used to' do creative writing? I also used to... ...but not anymore. I don't appear to have the patience for it now. Wow, I can't believe that you're the youngest of 4 daughters and I'm the youngest of four sons! Plus, you get on better with guys and I get on better with girls. Plus, we obviously have similar mental problems to deal with ( ).


Kevin.