Sport abuse

I had been playing soccer for 5 years with the same team.

2 months ago a new guy joined us play. He's really cocky and cad, but plays really well.

The team supports him and wants him play with us on the championship.

This guy started to insult and talk trash to me, each time I make a mistake, or even have a ball passed. I'm abit shy and not to too active guy, who likes living in peace and having alot of friends. I did not answer to him. Never. Because I was afraid that he'll offend me even more. And physically he's much stronger than me.

This hurts me so bad because now I'm 30 years old man and he is much younger than me.

I decided to quit the team and lied to everyone about the reasons.

Now I'm feeling really bad. Like I'm not a man, and do not deserve anything on this planet.

I don't know what to do with it.

You are most definitely a man..definitely much more so than the guy who was bullying you xx

You've removed yourself from the situation now which is good but your self esteem has taken a real nose dive so i would think that the best thing you can do atm is to consider finding a new group and activity to join in with.
Maybe a martial arts style - boxing/kickboxing/tae-kwon-do etc.. just something that will allow you to build your confidence up in a safe environment..
I specifically mentioned martial arts because they can be really good at confidence and self esteem building.. part of the training involves gentle competition which can be really useful in helping assertiveness.

Also; I wonder if you'd have a think about getting yourself on to a confidence building programme/therapy of some variety..? There are quite a lot of therapy types now which can really help to boost confidence and self esteem.

xx