Does It Ever Go Away?

The concept of asking for help... Not something I've ever been good at. In terms of what kind of help? I'm not in touch with my therapist any more. And I'm uneasy about telling my family. Although they were suppotive last time there are definately bigger fish to fry at the moment. My brothers wedding approaching, my mum's very ill fighting cancer for the sixth time. Kinda makes me a bit irrelevant right now. I lost a lot of friends first time round so wouldn't confide in them. And my partner wouldn't handle it well at all.

Wow that makes me sound like a right tool.

Do you think it naïve of me to think that its too soon to say I've lost control?

I am sorry there is not a readily accessible source of help for you. Do you think you could approach your GP? It sounds to me like you are ona slippery slope when it comes to control but you know yourself best. I am worried about you tho.

Cracked

The issue I have there is that my aunt is a receptionist for my GP so it again isn't confidential and brings family involved again.

Although I appreciate your time and replies, please don't worry Cracked. I'm sure I'll manage to pull this back together. It's not an option, I have to. Althoguh talking and posting is asking for help, I'm not one for doing that face to face. So hopefully it's not just my stubborness nor pride speaking when I say that I need to beat this alone.

I think there's different kinds of control... And I'm enjoying this control right now. So I don't think I need any help?

Thanks for your thoughts once more,

Saint

What control are you enjoying Saint? Thinkiing of you

Cracked

I guess I mean the control of what stays in my body. The sense of control that I'm eating what I want and it doesn't matter

That sounds good I think.

Cracked

xx

Thank you caty

Cracked

caty wrote:Does it ever go away ?
YES ! Yes it can go away. Maybe not for everybody, but for some people it can.
It could be YOU !

It was me and then I messed it up again