binge and purge the whole day through

HELP ME! I feel like all I do is binge and purge constantly! I used to be ana now I'm mia and I HATE myself for it! I just want the control of anorexia I once had. I HATE myslef for this dirty lifestyle. I feel like I accomplish nothing but binging and purging! It sickens me! I feel like I should be gaining weight as a penalty, but I'm loosing weight. I know that won't last much longer but none the less, I'm loosing as much weight as I did when I was ana. My mother weighs me every morning and has noticed the weight loss. She teels me I need to eat more but is she only knew how much I'm really scarfing down! I've been mia for two yaears and now can vomit without gagging myself....it come up really hard and fast without much effort. I'm thinking that maybe I'm not gaining weight as a result of this. I don't know...does anyone have any idea why I'm not packing on the pounds because of this dirty habit?

hey there

i do the same thing--and i know that damn feeling of feeling like you
re accomplishing nothing.

I do not know what to say--you are losing weight because you are not (i imagine) keeping any of the food you eat down

-donna

I think, atleast for ur bingeing & purging u r losing weight, however 4 me wateva I do I see no difference in my weight...