who am I ?

where am i? where was i all before these?.. it seems like i was born with it, i was all the time an idiot who carry herself to the toilet to throw out everything in her. crying is not a solution. i cry but i don't know why. i don't know the way out. i can't see it.

if only i could find "why".. i need a fairy coming out of somewhere in my life and helping me empty all my brain instead of my stomach. i just want to stop thinking.. oh how i wish i could have a new day.. they are all the same now, i wake up with the tought of food and never get any well through the day. life is priceless.. i look at the mirror and see myself. i want to see the mirror, not my body standing there! i want to look at myself from so far away that i am a small black dot, jumping in the middle of a sentence.

i am my only friend.. and i do not understand myself anymore. i do not understand anything. i open up my hands and look : they're empty. i have nothing. struggling and fighting doesn't help you any saturnfly girl.. you are at where you were.

good job..

I completely understand how u feel babe. Please tell someone and get help, I think its the only way u will feel better..

Take care, xx