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Well, i don't know where to start... I'm almost 25 years old and have been bulimic over half my life, since I was 12. It's getting to the point that my health is a big concern and it's starting to scare me. I just went to the doctor for kidney problems and my increasingly problematic throat. My boyfriend is at his wit's end because he's always trying to help me by making me eat and making me promise not to make myself sick but I can NOT keep that promise no matter how hard I try. I know he's about fed up with it because I hide it and he feels like I don't trust him. We both realize that there are a lot of issues from my past that feed my bulimia, but neither of us know what to do. I am not sure if I can even get better, maybe I'm too late, but I really would like to stop hurting myself. And him.

Hi, I'm new here too. I know everyone's situation is different and there are many reasons for us all getting to this stage but I do believe there is hope and recovery is worth fighting for. Sounds like you have a wonderful boyfriend who is supportive and really wants to help you and that counts for a lot. Being able to talk about this is a mega big step in the right direction. We have to start each new day in hope and to look to the future as positively as possible and start or restart again on the challenging journey to recovery, self worth and inner peace. I had deep anxieties regarding my voice problems and still have, but maybe a bit more controlled . It is good to talk on this forum and to realise that you are not alone and others can maybe help you. I know when I finally realised the dangers of this complex eating disorder I was terrified of what might happen. At some point a determination broke through to really fight this and I have an appointment with ENT soon. We are all worth it! I hope you will find the right help for your situation and I wish you well on the road to recovery.