Im new here so hi! Theres something thats been bothering me for a while and im curious if it happens to anyone else.
I first developed eating problems about 6 years ago. At a point the bulimia got so bad i was purging 1-3 times a day. Now it cycles in and out in terms of severity, but sometimes after I eat a good-sized meal and feel particularly guilty, the food will come up on its own without me trying. I know this is gross, but it just starts bubbling up and i have to leave the room to spit out mouthfuls. As you can imagine, this can be really inconvenient and it makes me sad. I think its correlated with feeling guilty/anxious about eating, like my brain is so used to having that feeling and immediately vomiting after that its just doing it on its own. I dont know though. Has anyone else experienced this? Is it normal? as someone who's trying to recover it can be really discouraging and also scary to not have control over your body.