Going back to the hospital?????!!!!??!!

I got my weekly checkup at my doctors and he evaluated me and said that unless he sees some dramatic change in the next week I am going to be readmitted. I havent spent one day without my symptoms and now my family is all over me with how upset they will be if I go back to the hospital and how I can just change with this threat hanging over me. I did not plan or anticipate this so I am as shocked as anyone else. I dont know what to do. I just know if I do go back to the hospital I will be back to stage one with my depression, my eating disorder and i wont graduate. Arghh I dont know what to do. PLease I will take any advice. I am scared,depressed,and hopeless.....

Can he do that? Here, something like that could not be done unless you are incapable of making your own decisions. You appear to be perfectly capable of this however. Perhaps he is just trying to scare you into trying to get better. Indeed, perhaps is the right time to try your hardest to improve.


I know that you have been trying already but you must try harder. Think of bringing in new things in your life. It is imperative that something in your life changes now because it must not continue as of old.

*hug*
Kevster

I had my checkup today, All the beds in the unit were taken so the doctor said probly next week i would be admitted. I suggested an alternative hospital (I think i hurt his feelings) but my family is against it and the doctor started naming all these places i could go to for males. Rogers was suggested and highly reccomended , he just has to check with insurence. But that is in wisconsin and I live in Pennsylvania.

I cant believe this is happening again. Everything was going fine for me. My family dosent understand how much pain I am going through. They think I can just stop with a snap of a finger. There is a part of me that dosent want to let go of my eating disorder though. Maybe going to a hospital is the right descison but.....I dont know I am really confused. Any suggestions?

When you say that there is a part of you that does not wish to be rid of the eating disorder I actually sympathise with you. I sometimes feel like that too but when I think hard about it I know that I would be happier if I could just not care about how I look / what I eat.


As you said, maybe the hospital is a good idea but if you are being admitted by a doctor, doesn't he/she also have the last say as to when you leave? You see, when I went to the hospital I self-admitted myself - My mother & doctor informed me that I would only be there for two days. Once I got there their story changed to it being a few months. That angered me so I left after one week. If I hadn't self-admitted myself I wouldn't have been able to leave.


The decision, on a moral basis, is yours. You are capable making your own decisions but right now somebody else is doing it for you. Take control: Grab the chains wrapped around your body and break free. Realise what the underlying problem is in your life and change it. If needs be, change everything. Just do everything you can fo your own happiness my friend.

Kevster

thanks for all your input, I am 98% going back to the hopital tommarow, It all depends wether or not thier is a bed available on the unit. Today was a really tough day with my symptons, I binged so much, I seriously thought my stomach was gonna burst open. I thought it was the end, that was how bad i binged. I need to take care of my eating disorder once and for all. The only problem is this hospital there are nurses that I get attached to and it interfres with my treatment. The nurses want the best for me but I end up getting better for them and not for myself. But right now being home is not the answer so i willl give the hospital another shot. I wish the best for everyone here and i hope to come back ASAP and tell you how it went. I havent kept food down in sooo long, I can already tell it will be a test of wills for me. God Bless.....Your not alone!

Hey,

I hope the experience helps you. If things work out good then I will probably never hear from you again considering that you will no longer require the help of this forum.


Take care my friend,
Kevster

no you will hear from me, I also have major depression and if meds and therepy dont help, I definitly know helping and talking to others sufgfering with it does help! You will, God bless

well i am back, but i am afraid nothing has changed. I met some beautiful people who were in very bad shape with Anorexia but now are doing good, i have been diagnosed with Chronic bulemia, whatever that means, but I hope everyone is doing well.