Priscilla - The same thing keeps happening to me too! Only if its a longish post too. I've given up quite a few times lol. I didn't think about writting it out and copying it - good thinking!
I hope you are well
That is exactly what I am doing tonight, I hope this works better. I am doing better today.
Yesterday was not so good. I did happen to try eating something different for lunch ladyswan; I went to a place and got a veggie wrap. Well they changed how the wrap is prepared no squash, no zucchini…but a lot of hummus. It was not a good wrap! The place was small and noisy too. That did not make me happy at all. Work was very stressful and that caused a binge/purge. I have not done that in so long. I have a really hard time not getting frustrated when I am at work and something totally illogical happens, and then I try to explain the issues and what I perceive as a logical solution and no one seems to hear me, yet they expect for me to fix the problem when it happens. I think the household I grew up in was like that. No one ever seemed to hear me, and as I got older I seemed to be looked upon as the ‘fix it’ person, which was a role I never asked for.
I actually stopped the binge by rationalizing to myself that since it was that big of a binge, I could get rid of it faster. I am not sure if that is progress or not. In the past once I had started, there was no stopping mid way through. It doesn’t feel like progress though.
It is funny being stressed out by people can cause a binge….yet sometimes being very lonely can cause one too.
weepingwillow said:
Quite proud of myself today - i phoned my GP for my results!! They're all clear. I also got another appt for J on monday.
My friends came round for a while tonight, it was really great to see them and we had a good catch up. We've decided to go walking a few nights a week. I'm stopping smoking tomorrow! Really looking forward to it, i hate it and i really can't afford it anymore!
Wow willow it sounds like you had a very productive day. Yay! that your test results cam make good and that you have your appointment for I am assuming working with someone regarding your eating disorder. Quitting smoking is a great goal to have..you can do it!
It is always nice when good things happen. I think that during times in my life when I was really happy, my eating disorder was not such a problem. Made me wonder when was the last time that I felt joy, I mean that exciting and really happy feeling. I think it was six months ago when I saw someone important to me that I had not seen in a while. Before that it was probably several years.
So I was wondering…what about the rest of you..when was the last time that you feel joyfully happy? What caused it and do you find that joy is also lacking from your life?
I’m sure most of us for one reason or another have different issues that we need to resolve in our lives and I think having stress but not much joy always makes it harder for me to fight my eating disorder. I suppose when I have little control over other parts of my life, I seek to control things with my binge/purge cycles as well as deal with emotions I find uncomfortable. Anyone else feel the same?
I hope you all have a good day or night depending on which side of the pond that you are on.
P.