How are you today? *TW*

Hey everyone

I hope this thread will be a place for us all to support each other and hopefully will encourage new members to post. I wasn't sure if it needed a Trigger warning or not so put one just incase.
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Willow

Today has been pretty good. I've been in a good mood all day and have loads of energy
Feel like i've done everything in fast forward today! lol

I haven't done too well with eating but i was anxious about going back to work tonight and about my GP appt in the morning. Hopefully i'll get back on track tomorrow.

Hope everyone is doing OK.

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willow

Good stuff, Willow It's inspiring to read how optimistic you are about working at the treatment.

My day's gone quite well. Got loads of stuff done and felt rather fast-forwarded too!

I'm quite hyper lately but not focusing on exercise which is good.

Today was a little different for me. I knew I had lots of things to do around the house, so last night I gave myself permission to not run. I run everyday. I prefer to do so outside, very early in the morning. If the weather is bad then I use my treadmill. I did do some pilates and toning exercises, but I usually do those and run.


I really don't get enough sleep and sometimes I think that can lead to me feeling anxious or irritable. I do really like the quiet of the morning, so am usually up at about 4:30 am. I wonder if anyone else here needs a good bit of quiet time like I do? Anyway...I slept just a little later, did my toning stuff and then got to my projects.

I didn't eat badly, but I didn't eat great either. Then again, I probably ate just like a normal person. I cannot lie though, sometimes I really miss being stick thin...that feeling of putting on just about anything and feeling attractive. I suppose we all must find a balance that works for us.

I did lie to someone who wanted to do something with me tomorrow. I really just didn't want to and I didn't want any confrontation/conflict. I feel slightly bad, but not that bad. Sometimes it is hard enough to keep it 'all together' without worrying about someone else's needs.

So today was a different day. Not bad, but not good. But not bad is probably good enough

ladyswan wrote:Good stuff, Willow It's inspiring to read how optimistic you are about working at the treatment.

My day's gone quite well. Got loads of stuff done and felt rather fast-forwarded too!

I'm quite hyper lately but not focusing on exercise which is good.

Hey, Thanks Everyone is always telling me that things can and will get better so i'm starting to believe it!
Thats the good thing about being in fast forward - getting loads done!

Priscilla13 wrote:Today was a little different for me. I knew I had lots of things to do around the house, so last night I gave myself permission to not run.

Its good you were able to realise you would need your energy for housework etc.

Priscilla13 wrote:I really don't get enough sleep and sometimes I think that can lead to me feeling anxious or irritable. I do really like the quiet of the morning, so am usually up at about 4:30 am. I wonder if anyone else here needs a good bit of quiet time like I do?

I don't sleep very well either. I've always liked having some quiet time to myself. I prefer nights but i used to love going for a walk really early in the morning.

Priscilla13 wrote:I did lie to someone who wanted to do something with me tomorrow. I really just didn't want to and I didn't want any confrontation/conflict. I feel slightly bad, but not that bad. Sometimes it is hard enough to keep it 'all together' without worrying about someone else's needs.
So today was a different day. Not bad, but not good. But not bad is probably good enough

I hate having to lie to ppl but i think if it makes life a little easier then try not to worry too much. What they don't know wont hurt them!
Not bad sometimes is good enough, i hope today is a good day

I'm just back from GP (minus half my blood volume ) The CPN rang and asked for more bloods to be done before she speaks to the EDS. GP thinks i will probably be seen within the next month or so. I'm looking forward to getting things moving.
I'm really tired today but i'm not working and my daughter is with her dad untill tomorrow so hopefully i can get a quick nap.

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willow

I hope everyone is having a good day

Today ended up being pretty horrible for me. I've had an awful headache all day. I had a nap this morning and i've been really depressed since. (wont do that again!)
Tbh i have'nt even tried to eat anything today but i have drank some tea.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

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weepingwillow wrote:I don't sleep very well either. I've always liked having some quiet time to myself. I prefer nights but i used to love going for a walk really early in the morning.

I had a feeling that many of us need our quiet time. I used to prefer nights, but that became more difficult when I started working so I switched to early mornings.

weepingwillow wrote:I hate having to lie to ppl but i think if it makes life a little easier then try not to worry too much. What they don't know wont hurt them!

You know I really agree with this. At times I just don’t need more stress.

I’m sorry to hear that today was not a good day. You have been very busy and even when the reason for going to the doctor is a good one, the whole process can be training. I do hope that tomorrow is better!

I had today off, I did get up early to run and I enjoyed it. Then had a day of shopping. The place is about an hour away from my house and one of those outdoor malls where you have to go outside to go from store to store. The weather was nice, so not too bad a time.

Back to work tomorrow and I am dreading it. I think the most stress in my life comes from my job. But I suppose that is the same for many people. I just need to not worry so much or take things so seriously, no one else there seems to that’s for sure!

I will be getting a new boss in a couple of months and I sure hope that person has some regard for other people's feelings and schedules. My current boss comes in very late and then always seems to call right at lunch time and keeps me for hours. She of course is not hungry because she just gotten to work. It is also not uncommon for her to call a few minutes before we are set to close, she works later so it never dawns on her that the rest of us have been there for 8 hours. The worst part is that her behavior messes my eating schedule up which is not good

She is not the kind of person that you can talk to though. I have tried... she gets very petulant. She does however stop talking to me for weeks at a time and I just love love that!

I actually quit once, I'd just had it with her. She talked me in to staying...but her behavior only improved for a short time.

Because I don't know how to deal with her behavior without making her angry, which just causes conflict, I have a lot of negative feelings towards her which causes me to feel agitated which seems to contribute to binges. I have never met anyone quite like her and I really hope that I never do again!

Does anyone else here find that interaction with a certain person in your life can trigger a binge? If you do, how do you deal with it?

Hope everyone has a good happy and healthy day!

Hi
It's interesting what I say about interacting with certain people being more stressful & triggering, I do find some people, whether its conversation topics or my paranoia or what ever stresses me out & that seems to trigger throwing up.

I also get what u r saying about early mornings, I love how quiet it is & I'm often up 4am once I'm up I never stop, kinda nervous energy.

Today I don't know how I'm doing yet, I don't feel like me coz I usually do loadsa exercise but I'm injured. I'm trying 2 keep busy now I've finished wk today & it'll be when I actually sit down & stop I reckon I'll freak out. I'm hopeful rational brain will kick in, not guilty, extreme ed brain.

Take care everyone x

Hi Everyone!
Lils-thank you for your post, I was really wondering if I was the only one who found certain people to be a major trigger. I have also found that some people tend to for lack of a better word, 'sooth' me. I don't need to talk to them about my issues or anything...just being in their presence seems to make me feel less anxious.

I understand about the exercise. A couple of years ago I broke two toes. I still found a way to run 5 miles almost immediately.

For me exercise is my primary way of binging. I have never been very good at throwing up, although I have done that too. So the way that I try to look at the entire cycle is that I 'can't binge' because I either physically cannot exercise (purge) or that I cannot exercise for 3-4 hours because then something else that I need to/want to do will get in the way. Maybe if you don't binge you won't freak out so badly later. I did something like that earlier this week and it went okay. If you feel like you are freaking out...write to us. Let us know how your day went. Maybe that will help too.

Nervous energy from dawn to dusk...that's me!

Willow-has today been a better day for you? Headache finally gone? I hope that you are indeed feeling better!

My day has not been too bad so far, half way through the work day. Just on my lunch break now.

I hope that everyone here is doing okay and that if you are not that you post about what happened and let us support you. I know that I will be posting on bad days...the idea of having that option comforts me.

Hey,
Sorry if i miss something, i'm finding it hard to keep things in my head.

lils - I know you're struggling with not being able to exercise but just remember it wont be forever and a short rest is better than a longer forced rest! We are here if you need to talk

Priscilla - I haven't actually noticed any people triggering me, i dont see many people (except at work) and i always binge when i get home anyway.
My headache is still there but much better, Thank you.

Today has been pretty much the same as yesterday im sorry to say. My appt with J was cancelled this morning, i hate plans changing at the last minute so that freaked me out and it all went downhill from there. I made myself eat an apple before work. I literally spent my entire shift trying not to cry. I really need to snap out of this mood, i hate being like this. I wasnt going to post at all today because i want to be positive and i cant. Then i saw Priscilla's post and i realised we will all have good and bad days and the point of this thread is to support each other.
I'm hopefull tomorrow will be better, i have a rough plan of what i would like to try and eat. I also have a few bits to do around the house so i should be able to stay busy. Hopefully my mood will be much better too!

((Hugs)) everyone!