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Well I am new here, I have a long history of anorexia, depression and bulimia. Right now I am in university and having a really hard time, I don't even know if I want to be here. I am on medication and I have lots of support from my family, but I really hate to worry them. All through my adolescent I refused treatment and did not comply with anything, which resulted in NG tube and restraints. I lived in the hospital because my parents despartely wanted me to get better. Anyways time went by and I became legal to make desicions for myslef and was not forced to stay in the hospital, I went back to school, graduated and travelled. Now I am school for Nursing and I am starting to feel like I should not be here, I really am lost, sometimes I want help and other times I really want to die. I don't know what to do, I really am lost.

You have no idea how much I wish I could say or do something to help... but I don't really think there is. I've been dealing with similar things for a few years (although admitedly I think I'm a fair bit younger) the best thing for me has been friends and belief in something bigger than all this. If I can say anything it's look after yourself and try and get better. Don't try and do it on your own, but do try

You should be proud of what you have achieved my friend. You came through great adversity to get your education. My simple advice to you right now is to seek help when you even slightly feel the need for it. Like, a university counsellor even. It's good to talk.

That above post was me. I though I was logged in but obviously was not.