I've been dx'd with Bipolar 1 but......

Hi, I'm new to this site but so far I've been really comforted by the stories of people's experiences so I wanted to share mine.

I joined this site from the sexual addiction forum even though I have a bona fide dx of bipolar. It seems if you've had one psychotic episode in your life you get an automatic dx of bipolar and once that happens a lot of pshychiatric professionals let personality disorders fall under that umbrella and don't bother to dx any further. After reading the posts on the BPD forum I wonder if this is something I have been suffering from for years.

Breif hx. My father left when I was 6. The few times I would see him he was always cold and distant.
I was raped at 15 and by the time I was 18 I was stripping and one bad stroke of luck away from prostitution, but then my hero appeared in the form of my ex husband.I thought I had been saved from myself. I was with him for 10 years and he was very abusive.To the point where I had a psychotic episode right after I finally left him.

Here's my problem. I hate myself. I cut myself and I'm struggling from and eating disorder right now.
I have a major alcohol problem and obviously pronounced sex addiction, really whatever I can do to harm mysel will work. This past year has been the worst mainly because it's the first time i've been on my own since I was 20, I'm 34. I can't accept love from men, and do my best to hurt them so they will eventually become the bad guy I'm so much more accustomed to. My last bf went from being concerned that regular sex was hurting me to nearly choking me to blacking out while we were having rough sex. I feel like I'm screwing with these guys for my need to be hurt. I don't want love from them (and begin to resent them when I can feel them showing it) and I can be very cold, but I also don't want to be alone. I also have wild mood swings and different perceptions of my enviroment depending on the day, but of course thats always been attributed to the bipolar.

I've been in therapy for years and take meds, lithium, lamictal and klonipin. I've overcome a lot of my anxiety and thankfully have never had another psychotic episode. So my treatment is working in a lot of ways but my behavioral issues still plague me to this day and they seem to be getting worse, thats where the BPD comes in. I was wondering if you guys might have any advice on behavioral modification. I really like my therapist and don't want to switch and also can't afford an additional specialist. Thanks.