Not sure if I have BPD

Hi,

I'm new to this forum and just looking for some support. I am trying to get out of a break-up that has been dragging on for nine months already, and I'm not sure why I am struggling to let go. I have been abused many times in my life, starting in childhood, and I thought I had PTSD but now I am growing more concerned that I have BPD also. When I research BPD, what I find is usually very negative. I am in a graduate program studying mental health counseling, and students and professors often talk very negatively about people with BPD as well. This makes me very scared to accept that I might have it because I don't want to think of myself the way other people think of BPD. I'm hoping to get a better understanding of what it is to live with BPD so I can accept that I might have it and I can try to help myself. I am very functional and I live alone, but I am extremely attached to my ex and I continue to reach out to him even though I am pretty certain he is emotionally abusive. I think that I might be emotionally abusive too, which I don't want to face. I would love to talk to other people that might understand me.

hey there lady! welcome to the forum!

my heart goes out to you in regards to your breakup. if you ever want to talk about it, we're here!!

i hate the stigma that hangs over bpd like a black cloud. i'm thinking of going to the dsm and having bpd changed to apd: AWESOME personality disorder, because i'm pretty sure we're full of awesome. if you're trying to get a bit more familiar with some of our awesome traits...here's a list of the top 100 to check out:

borderline-personality/topic92781.html

Thank you.