backwards, down hill

by **jessicaborthwick** » Sat Aug 18, 2012 3:10 am

i am falling back into old habits of self harm, depression, anxiety, wanting to stab others, wanting to set stuff on fire, im not sleeping and my mind is in overdrive, violent thoughts

sometimes i think im better off locked up for life in a psych unit it would be more safe for others when im like this

over the past 6 weeks i have slowly gone backwards, i have falling into a chaotic world of my mind

weather will it end in prison or hospital i dont know

my mind is f**ked up i know that it always will be

my case manager knows im not doing well but i only told him about the anxiety and depression not the rest of it

jessicaborthwick wrote:i am falling back into old habits of self harm, depression, anxiety, wanting to stab others, wanting to set stuff on fire, im not sleeping and my mind is in overdrive, violent thoughts

sometimes i think im better off locked up for life in a psych unit it would be more safe for others when im like this

over the past 6 weeks i have slowly gone backwards, i have falling into a chaotic world of my mind

weather will it end in prison or hospital i dont know

my mind is f**ked up i know that it always will be

my case manager knows im not doing well but i only told him about the anxiety and depression not the rest of it

jessica hon!

my heart goes out to you! i'm glad you reached out, not just to your case manager, but to us. was there something in particular that triggered you? we're here if you need us. sometimes just talking it out and letting it go can alleviate some of that angst.

hugs,

wineaux

by **jessicaborthwick** » Sat Aug 18, 2012 4:07 am

i find it a lot easier talking about it to people i dont know then to people i do know, i use a kids help lines a lot at the moment
they have online chat i go on to a lot (one on one)
i dont know who ill talk to when i turn 25 (im 23) i will be to old to use them
here is good to at least i will never be to old for here

by **bsl9408** » Sat Aug 18, 2012 7:58 am

Hey hun, I'm in nsw, once you hit 25 you can switch over to using lifeline instead of kids helpline, or you can use it now, their chat is available 8pm-midnight every night of the week instead of 24/7 though, but if youre using the web one on kids helpline at night and the wait is too long you can try lifeline as a back-up https://www.lifeline.org.au/Find-Help/O ... risis-chat xx

by **jessicaborthwick** » Sat Aug 18, 2012 8:39 am

bsl9408 wrote:Hey hun, I'm in nsw, once you hit 25 you can switch over to using lifeline instead of kids helpline, or you can use it now, their chat is available 8pm-midnight every night of the week instead of 24/7 though, but if youre using the web one on kids helpline at night and the wait is too long you can try lifeline as a back-up https://www.lifeline.org.au/Find-Help/O ... risis-chat xx

thanks i look at that one

by **jessicaborthwick** » Thu Aug 23, 2012 7:13 am

i ended up in hospital for 4 days over it

by **Cheze2** » Thu Aug 23, 2012 12:00 pm

I'm sorry you ended up in the hospital, but I hope that it was helpful to you. Has anything changed in your mood? Keep talking, we're here to help, and it can really help to get everything out there into the interworld where no one really knows who you are. At least you're telling someone.

by **jessicaborthwick** » Sat Aug 25, 2012 8:34 am

yes hospital did help but i hate it in there
im doing better but not over it yet
my moods are a bit better
im sleeping again
they put my meds up

by **Cheze2** » Sat Aug 25, 2012 12:09 pm

I'm glad you're feeling a little bit better. Keep taking good care of your self. Know that you deserve it.

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