losing my pdoc

I got a message on my phone today from the receptionist at my mental health center. She stated that my pdoc got a new position and would no longer be seeing me. They also cancelled my next appointment until they get someone new. I'm quite upset about this. It definitely triggered loss and abandonment for me. I had such a good connection to her(my pdoc was female). She would always spend extra time with me to listen to what I had to say and make sure we had the meds right. Now I'm afraid of what might happen. What if this new doctor isn't like that? What if she's just one of those in and out in 5 minutes types? What happens if I go into crisis before I get my new pdoc set up? Who would I see? or am I all alone? and How long is it going to take to get me in to see someone new? I was supposed to see my pdoc in about a month. This is just terrible. I was doing so well and now this gets thrown into my lap. I'm trying to use my distress tolerance skills and making my pros and cons list but I keep coming up with more cons. My anxiety is through the roof. This is just terrible.

cheze -

wow. i'm pissed for you. did they tell you when she's leaving? i would try and get her a message asap that you'd like to speak with her before she leaves, not only to say goodbye but to PLEASE give a referral to someone she respects and that would be a good fit as you are super anxious about the change!

Thanks Wineaux,
I don't think there is much I can do but sit and wait unfortunately. Where I go It's basically you see who they give you. My current pdoc would probably be going against the rules of the company to refer me to anyone else. It's just awful how much this triggers by BPD. It makes me want to act out before then so see if I can see her one last time. I have no reason to really go in now. My moods have been pretty steady. Maybe I can write her a letter? I think she's staying within the company, but just in a new position. That's what it sounded like on the message anyways.