Burning Bridges

So I really hate this about myself. I tend to do things or say things that I later regret and people just cut me out of their lives entirely. It's like they have made a judgement about my personality and figure I'm just a bad person that always acts that way - or maybe I'm imagining it, I don't know. Thing is, sometimes I'm just going through a bad time in my life. I said a lot of things before I had progressed in therapy - when I was in my post-suicide-attempt phase and taking a lot of valium just to cope (btw benzos really increase impulsive behavior). But I can't go back and mend these friendships and I don't know how to explain to people that I'm not so nuts anymore. Does anyone else do this? Say or do things that are just deal breakers for other people?

I don't really have any advice, but I wanted you to know that you're so not alone. It's been something that's haunted me my entire life and the sadness and anger I feel when I lose someone because I've acted like an ass is nearly unbearable. I have grown into myself a bit the last few years and it hasn't really happened recently, but I can assure you that there is a long list of people who were once in my day to day life who are now firmly in my past because of my actions and it sucks.

Again, sorry no advice, but lots of understanding!

Like emptyspaces I can't give you any advice but I can sympathise and empathise with you. I have lost everyone and everything. I don't have a soul to talk to. The only thing that keeps me going is this site and knowing there is other people like me. I honestly can't see myself making it to the end of this year unless some miracle happens. I have lost every single friend and all of my family. It is pure hell. I am glad to see that you are on your way to being recovered. I hope you get things sorted out good luck to you. Sorry I couldn't be anymore help.