He's So Broken, All I Wanna Do is Fix Him **MAY TRIGGER**

-The following may trigger-

He is the smartest person I've ever met. He is also perhaps the most broken. I want to gather him into my arms and fix all his broken places. I want to protect him from anything that would cause him harm. Of course I realize there's no fixing him.
He witnessed unspeekable violence under the age of 5. He was raped by his foster father throughout childhood. He was subjected to every form of abuse you could possibly imagine. Sometimes when I touch him, he flinches. Or I see him shaking. There's a scar on his stomach that makes chills go through me.
I love him. I would take bullets for him. I'm letting him stay in my apartment with me for a while. I know he cares for me, the best he can. He is capable of more emotional cruelty than he realizes, however. I'm just not sure why I'm so attracted to him. Why I wanna fix him so bad even though I know full well this is not possible.

My wife has been with me for 9 years, she tells me why she loves me and why she loves me but i dont see it. I'm just thankful she can deal with my behaviors.
Itts good that you support him, and i hope it isnt to hard on you. People with past abuse and that may have mental disorders arent the easist to care for or love.
With support and therapy? and meds? I think most people can get to a better place and start to feel some contentment. Just takes time and a willing person. hope it works out for u both.

the other me wrote:My wife has been with me for 9 years, she tells me why she loves me and why she loves me but i dont see it. I'm just thankful she can deal with my behaviors.
Itts good that you support him, and i hope it isnt to hard on you. People with past abuse and that may have mental disorders arent the easist to care for or love.
With support and therapy? and meds? I think most people can get to a better place and start to feel some contentment. Just takes time and a willing person. hope it works out for u both.

Thank you so much for your words of encouragement. Loving him is really hard sometimes. Because of the nature of my own mental health issues, his lack of effection and his sometimes playing emotional mind games take a tole on me.
All I can really do is love him for who he is and always be there for him.