Hi I was wonder if anyone could help me?

Hi I was wondering if anyone could help me with what might be happening to me at the moment...

4 weeks ago I was diagnosed with Borderline personality disorder, after I became suicidal and went to the ER.
I have bad anxiety and depression also, and have since had major problems getting out of bed, masssive stress and skin problems.
I'm currently only on lexapro.
I was just wondering what might be going on with me lately...
Instead of my anxiety in my chest, where I normally get it, I'ts like it's going on inside my brain...
I'm wondering if this is a form of psychosis? Unsure, but it's very frightening, and has caused me to be introverted, withdrawn, and worried.
I am a pot smoker because I need something to help level out my moods.
I've tried going off the pot, but this only increases my anger and irritability.
I also still have the anxiety...
It's like my thoughts are sometimes fighting themselves if that makes sense...
Any insight would really help, thanks!

hi there miss_havoc -

i'm so sorry you're having such a rough time right now. here's a sweet kitty e-hug! let's see if i can come up with some insight...

1. thank you for taking the courage to come here and share your story. you are surrounded by those that can share and empathize with about every feeling you have. we are here for questions, concerns, to listen and to provide you with support whenever you need it.

2. lexapro is the truest SSRI on the market, it is also the fastest acting. since you are still suffering from anxiety and depression, have you considered that maybe you need something in addition to or perhaps trying something else to help you? there are several choices...i myself have had to play med roulette until finding the right combination. you should talk to your doctor...and i really love this website as a resource for what seems to work and not work: http://www.crazymeds.us/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/HomePage

3. skin problems...what are you experiencing? there are an incredible amount of home remedies on the web that will blow your mind without having to spend $$$$$ on products that may or may not work. and most of these remedies are made from ingredients for your pantry.

4. in regards to psychosis, do you feel you're having delusions or hallucinations? those are the 2 main signs to look out for. some symptoms include: disorganized thought and speech, false beliefs that are not based in reality (delusions), especially unfounded fear or suspicion, hearing, seeing, or feeling things that are not there (hallucinations), thoughts that "jump" between unrelated topics (disordered thinking) this is something you DEFINITELY need to talk to your dr about and get to the root of the issue. i'm sure this just exacerbates everything else you're feeling.

5. in regards to leveling out your moods...i myself am on a mood stabilizers. you'll find options listed in the site i linked above ^^.

if you have any additional questions or thoughts you want to share, please feel free to PM me! i'm sure you'll have some great advice given here and i hope are able to alleviate some of your anxiety about what you're going through.

huggles,

wineaux