I little off kilter TRIGGER

by **IButterfly** » Fri Apr 27, 2012 2:32 am

Hi everyone,
I am sorry to visit this on you I simply have no one else to tell and I have to get the words out so they won't take the life out of me...so to speak..
I am feeling very...well, my skin is getting really tight and my hair feels too big and I am not feeling that I am...real... this is not new at all, I usually have a therapist to call and touch base with but I don't have that right now...
I guess I should mention that I don't take drugs nor do I drink alcohol. I do take my psych meds though.

I am a self harm girl though... my skin just gets so tight I have to open it to relieve the pressure. I am posting here to relieve the pressure rather then cut....
Again, sorry...
I can feel the separation coming on and I get anxious because I don't like that feeling of not being in my skin while at the same time I do like it too...
I will be ok. I know it. Just too much in the past few days... Too much work, too much pressure ....
I knew I was coming to this for at least a day ahead. I start listening to Pink Floyd LOL! Since I accepted my diagnosis 2 ish years ago I have made many discoveries about myself and my BPD. I began to notice the little sign of a spiral starting as well as indicators of how bad it would get. Now if I could just figure how to head it off... Sorry, again.... for being such a mess...or at least being the place holder till the mess gets here...

Butterfly

I'm glad you came here to relieve the pressure.

I understand what you're saying... sometimes I just feel like tearing my skin off... It gets so uncomfortable sometimes...

Funny that you mention Pink Floyd. I was listening to this earlier: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Eipqj_BuaAY It's female vocals and cello covering "Wish You Were Here".

by **MissAli** » Fri Apr 27, 2012 1:12 pm

Hi iButterfly!!!

First off, I'm sorry I got to this thread a little late - I'm hoping that the tactile sensations have ceased, but in case that they have not, we are here for you, and we are listening.

Please let us know if you need some anchors or grounding, and we will help in any way that we can.

<3

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I little off kilter TRIGGER