Anyone have BPD with a chronic physical illness/disability?

Does anyone have BPD with a chronic physical illness/disability find that their illness/disability makes the fear of abandonment all the more real and worse? Or do you find that your moods/suicidal thoughts directly correlate with whether you are having a good health day or feeling hopeless physically?

Hi Noca!

Even though I do not personally suffer from a physical impairment, I can understand that it would make the feelings of a BPD'er worse than usual. I really feel for you, and hope that you can find a lot of support and help on our forum.

I want to welcome you, and thank you for posting a unique topic!

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The more recovered I get, the more physically healthy I feel.

I was always tired and ached all over. i think that was due to being constantly anxious and stressed and it affected my immune system. Plus, I wasn't taking care of myself. I was drinking heavily, bulimic and not sleeping well.

Now, although I stuggle with self-care, I am allowing myself to take vitamins and trying to eat better. I do notice a change in my moods, because I am eating regularly and sleeping better. It's catch 22 though, I eat because I'm depressed. But that causes sugar highs and lows, which make me depressed, so I binge.

Also, anxeity gave me ear problems.I had constant ear aches, vertigo, motion sickness.

Even though I struggle with guilt over feeling more physically healthy, it is nice not to feel like death warmed up all the time.

Tinnitus.

When i had anorexia in high school i almost went into cardiac arrest which was really serious i had one on one nurses and machines and i was not allowed to leave the ward and walk around in case i had a heart attack. This was 2003-2004 though.

I have high arches which is nothing but it does become painful and annoying.

And i have bad headaches, neck aches, rarely arms, legs, feet and muscle pains that make unable to walk or function properly, make me really fatigued and cry and its worse when i wake up of a morning.

Rebba, Tinitus can be caused by anxeity

When my anxeity was at it's worst, I could barely hear my ears were popped and I had tinitus.

Lily82 wrote:Rebba, Tinitus can be caused by anxeity

When my anxeity was at it's worst, I could barely hear my ears were popped and I had tinitus.

yeah but i used to go to raves and festivals aged 18-21.
I also blare an ipod.

Its that, anxiety & medication overuse at times.

Its the c word. (c*nt) and my electricity bill has gone through the roof because i need to sleep and doze off without that noise. Its been here non stop since around May 2011.

I don't expect it will go away soon. My ears always feel full and i had them looked in no infection or middle ear infection or wax.

I suffer from chronic pain from a bone disease, malnutrition as a result of anorexia, hormone deficiencies, BPD, ADD, and anxiety. I struggle so hard to make it through each day and I feel like the days I am feeling really sick are how its going to be. Worse is that I feel like no one will want to be with me in this condition that I'll always be in, including my gf. I fear she will leave me for my disabilities and that brings upon my intense fear of abandonment from BPD, causing me to be extremely suicidal.

some mornings i have problems walking, etc i feel disabled and come home crying from pain in my feet (heels) mainly. I have high arches but it hurts like hell for some reason. It spreads to my legs etc and sometimes i wake with agonising neck and headaches and in my joints.

The worst is the heels though .... and being in pain when walking all the time.

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I also feel the cold really badly... like really badly. I am cold a lot of the time.

And have a hernia.... i had a gastroscopy to find that last year.

/end whinge

I have a back problem that causes me pain when sitting or standing for long periods of time, or when I'm doing repetitive physical movements. The worse the pain, the worse the moods- I'm not sure whether it is just the pain, or the frustration of not being able to do things like I could before. The abandonment issue- I already have a lot of abandonment issues surrounding my job, and since my back has become worse and I've had to start limiting the more physical jobs I take on, they've kicked in even more. I have to work with a person who I feel is there to take over my job, and since my back's gotten worse, I feel more and more like I have to prove I can do my job so she can't have it and then they can't just dump me. It's a complicated issue, but in short, yes it does affect my abandonment issues even more.