tired of all effort and no results

Ive been in this hole for almost two years now. Things were getting better then my whole life changed. Im back to square one. But now im cutting on a daily basis and have obsessive suicidal thoughts. Im real tired of trying. Im in therapy the whole time as well as being on different meds. Ive even done ect. I want to stop cutting. I cant. Now i tink some are infected. I dont know what to do anymore.

I'm not sure what else to tell you, but you should at least get some antibiotic ointment for the cuts.