@rebba87....
I know what you mean I do that all the time, I graduated in administration and started working... 3 months in I was doubting myself and my skills, thought everyone hated me and I hated them back it was this crazy storm in my head and damn me because it was a flexible schedule nice good pay full benefits and I managed to go nuts in a place where everyone is so normal (offices) and now I'm on sick leave. I also graduated in esthetics in 2008 and worked a couple months... Same exact thing happend. Went nuts and was fired. Ugh.
Honestly for me bpd really screws me when it comes to work/careers. I just can't deal with having ye same job, the routine, I'm always paranoid and think the worst of people, then I go through depressions and miss work all the time. Then I'm soooo hyper I become bothersome for coworkers. Just.... Ugh!!!
Good luck to you I wish that you find a career/job and stick to it, I know I can't