New year, new hope!

I have always found new hope this time of year. It is doubled this year because I know so much more than I did before. I have hope of being recovered, of being whole, of being ME.

I was doing the whole "I have to be a perfect mom, because my kids are GONE in 2 and 4 years. I know my kids and they aren't going to abandon me, now it is MY turn to show them the same.

I have never done regular therapy because I always felt like I would uncover this horribly awful person. Instead, I think my authentic self is who I've always known. I just want to learn to handle my relationships along the whole spectrum of my life.

My whole life has been a search for authenticity. I want to be able to handle it without fear and shame.

Happy new treat!

(diagnosed late late 2011 BPD, NPD, ADHD, generalized anxiety.)

Kudos to you for taking this approach, and fingers crossed that you succeed.