BPD causing severe anger outbursts at everyone...

I feel like I have no patience left with ANYONE anymore... It's pretty much ruined my relationship with my parents, removed all the friends from my life, affecting my relationship with my gf on top of taking a toll on my health. I desperately need to learn some distress tolerance and/or take some medication to deal with my anger.

People's previously rude comments, insensitive actions, or lies, I simply cannot take anymore and I blow up! Its really embarrassing and I feel like crawling into a hole and dying... For the first time in YEARS I actually don't feel like killing myself cause I actually want to live to see another day to share it with my gf that I love.

BPD is sooooo hard to control! I am trying my best to being fully aware of my symptoms and accept that I have this illness, so that I can hopefully treat it. Having normal people try to understand or believe this illness exists is very difficult and doing so drains me soo much that I literally starved myself half to death, and don't even have the physical energy to barely take care of myself anymore.

Looking back, I've had this illness for years, stemming from an insensitive and emotionally, abusive/physically threatening/neglectful father growing up. I would love to remove him from my life but he is everywhere that my mother goes. I don't want to give up the only family relationship that I cherish, that which I have with my mother.

I got re-referred to DBT therapy, back on that list, as well as lined myself up for a new psychiatrist, but its VERY hard in the meantime. There isn't much left of my life from what there was. I have access to pretty much every medication there is, but I'm currently too fatigued and physically wiped to take anything very sedating right now due to starving myself into pretty bad malnourishment. I spend enough time sleeping as it is.

I really need some advice or support right now....

I go though the exact same anger as you just described. Like you, it has taken a toll on my health and well-being.
Sometimes I can look at the person i am angry with and tell myself that the rage im feeling towards them and their existence is not worth my time, energy, anxiety, the deterioration of my health, or any repercussions i might get for acting upon my anger. for me, telling myself this only lasts so long. It sound like a selfish thing but it's true in a lot of ways