Feeling rejected by friends *MAY TRIGGER*

Well, I guess I still do get feelings of abandonment/rejection over friends though it's not crippling it hurts.

I have some acquaintances who hold a private study group twice a month. I was invited as a guest last month and thought we all got along fine. I told the woman who had me there as her guest that I'd love to come back.

But now I've found out they had a study group this weekend and invited a friend of mine, but not me. I feel triggered and about 15 years old right now. It reminds me of high school cliques.

I did not behave inappropriately in any way shape or form but some of my friends know I have BPD and I'm wondering if people are gossiping about it and have decided to exclude "the crazy girl."

I am trying to use the few DBT skills I've picked up through workbooks, but group stuff definitely sends me back to high school. It's getting to the point where I wonder if I should even participate in social groups to meet new people, because the dynamics ultimately seem to get cliquish no matter what kind of group it is.

I can understand why you feel rejected.
If you behaved appropriately though, they probably don't have any reason to exclude you, even if they know you have BPD. Maybe they just forgot to invite you, or have some other reason that has nothing to do with you? Not knowing them, I honestly have no idea, I'm just throwing the possibility out there, and letting you know I read this.

I'm not sure what it is. They said at the study group that all we had to do to come back was let the person who invited us know, and I did so in person. I also thanked her for having me in an e-mail the day after the event.