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from a BDP's point of view, what resonates with yous?
i'm trying to get a handle on what being in your own BDP world feels like. (like, i'm pretty isolated in my own BDP world, n now i've been diagnosed, i want something i can relate to.)
Cheers

To some extent this does:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KRfyG4LezoI

aside that, you'll have to ask me about 10 different times so I can give you about 10 or more different answers… which would all be true for the different times and circumstances…

nexys wrote:from a BDP's point of view, what resonates with yous?
i'm trying to get a handle on what being in your own BDP world feels like. (like, i'm pretty isolated in my own BDP world, n now i've been diagnosed, i want something i can relate to.)
Cheers

For me I guess it would have been the movie Girl, Interrupted, although I spent no time institutionalized. Good luck with your diagnosis and treatment, you're not alone!

Anything by Nine Inch Nails. I can relate to almost any song

Thanks LB, i'm gonna watch Girl Interrupted again. Apparently th author didn't approve of th film's angle, but it does have Winona n Angelina in it, which is pretty good i reckon.
@ SC - you can reply 10 different times if you want. that cartoon was chilling. thanks for posting it. i got used to being called 'weirdo' (like it's an insult) when i was a kid. You just grow into it, don't you.

-- Mon Nov 14, 2011 3:36 pm --

Just found this: My Name Is Emma. [Sexual Abuse: My Story] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WHvUdgxyO7k
It's a good video. Not specifically about BDP, but can be one of th causes.

Lately I've been rereading The Brothers Karamazov by Dostoevsky and I notice it's hard to find a single character that does not have any BPD traits.

Along the same lines, Thus Spake Zarathustra by Nietzsche resonates strongly with me, because of the extreme existential states of mind that he describes.

Music: anything by Mahler, I suppose. His music is somehow very unstable and even violent (and brilliant).

A bit less old: Joy Division and Low, among many other bands. A lot of their music has to do with mental health issues and control (and lack thereof).

And I would like to mention The Frozen Borderline, which I discovered recently when I was looking for stuff about BPD. It's a side-project of a band called The Blue Angel Lounge. Ecstatic and melancholy at the same time.

This song fits for me and my BPD.

Picking Up Pieces

A lot of this listed seems to be dramatic or sad or somber, but often I feel excited and full and euphoric.
I really enjoy Childish Gambino (aka Donald Glover). I really have come to associate my struggles with his music. Listen to the words in Not Going Back (or read em in the description). The beat and his skills lift me up. Also, I really identify with FLCL. It's real existential, as BPD often is. In addition, its a coming of age story and I always feel like I'm coming of age. The trailer doesn't showcase the quiet moments well, but you can watch it free on Funimation's youtube account. I really like songs that sound reckless or full of abandon (can you be full of abandon?) like Get Away by Yuck or Arcade Blues by Neon Indian (let's dance).

I also like more somber things too, I guess. I don't know why I would want to consume media that feeds my bad mood, but I do like everyone else.
I really liked Black Swan. Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon is great too. I was going to put it with the "fun" list, but the ending is always a bummer. I love the messages, though. I can really identify with the main character having a powerful force inside that they can't control. Plus, I've been watching Enlightened on HBO. I mentioned it in a thread I started a day ago. Though it doesn't specifically mention BPD, you will swear you are watching a show starring a person with BPD. It really catches me cuz I can relate to it so well, the way she splits life. Its not really a sad show but it could trigger, maybe. It doesn't for me. You can probably find it online somewhere if you don't have HBO.

Strange how all the sad examples are female characters. Perhaps audiences don't want to watch a male being vulnerable or weak.

@ Chaudement - not keen on NIN, bit on th heavy side. Arctic Monkeys are more my style tho - do like Crying Lightning - wicked lyrics.
oh, n @ LadyBuggy BTW - i've ordered Girl, interrupted (DVD n book) coz they were only cheap, n Angelina's character was worth another watch.

nexys wrote:@ Chaudement - not keen on NIN, bit on th heavy side. Arctic Monkeys are more my style tho - do like Crying Lightning - wicked lyrics.

You're obviously referring to my signature.. It is a great song, one of my favourites at the moment. The lyrics are great.

NIN are amazing though... Radiohead, I connect with them a lot as well.

I love this song at the moment:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LpwW4iraV3Q&ob=av2e

It's not really BPD... But I love the tune and the lyrics