Having a rough time

The friends I loved so much and lost before joining this site are bothering me again. One of the girls called me up last night trying rather baddly to pretend to be a different girl. I'm pretty sure it was being recorded and multiple silent people were on the line. What are we like, in middle school guys? Ug. Despite everything I miss them and the whole ugly situation weighs heavily on my heart. It's like waking up in the middle of the destruction caused by a tornado and just being like, what the ###$? How the hell did all this happen?
On the bright side, ever since my shrink increased my dose of Lexapro to 20 MG, it seems to be working a whole hell of a lot better. and I start DBT tomorrow.
I just feel so alone and blah. Meh.

See, if I were you, I'd have already changed my number and would have moved on to look for different friensd. THink of the situation in this light: You are not missing them as the people that they are - No - you are missing the feeling of friendship. However, the feeling of friendship can be offered from any person, not just them. One could argue that they never actually offered you friendship, and therefore you should not attempt to offer any of yours to them.

Why were you put on Lexapro? I took it for 4 years and it really helped ... it's a bugger to come off though.

Take it easy
Kevin

Hi Kevin
Thank you for your reply.
I know they suck but I don't wanna change my number. I like my number. - Wines-
but if it comes down to it I will.
I was put on Lexapro for Borderline Personality Disorder. At 10 MG, it didn't seem to do much but once it went up to 20 it really started being noticable.

That's fine, but just be careful with it. There might come a point where they are just a drain on your morale, and then it would be better to just 'ditch' them and move forward.

10mg is quite low... 20mg is what most are put on, but I was started on 40mg, then gradually dropping over 4 years to 0mg.

Kevin

Good luck with CBT! I just started therapy recently, and while it is super anxiety-provoking, it I also really good!

Hey guys!
I had my first pre DBT meeting this last Tuesday. I see him again this Tuesday.
I have to stop seeing my regular therapist while I'm DBT for a year. That kind of sucks but I'm really looking forward to making positive progress in DBT.
How'severyone today?

Congrats on your first meeting! I am guessing it went well from the tone of your post.

I am home sick today, a bit stir crazy and nothing I can do to escape those "empty" feelings. Fiancé is watching tv in the living room, oblivious. I feel all alone. I'm in the bedroom trying to read a book, skulking around online, trying not to wallow.

Hope you are well today.

That's good news - I can sense the excitement through your words. It is normal not to see your 'first' therapist while you see the DBT (or CBT) one.

For MartianRobotgirl., it would be really neat if you journaled your DBT experience so you can share it with your regular therapist and have a ready reference. I have found my notes invaluable. You'll have to journal every day anyway but do extra stuff so you can really see how this disorder can make it seem like you're not progressing at all when in fact you're leaping miles and miles. Good luck and best wishes.

Hi MRG!!!

I know that people can be really provoking, and it sucks that others are trying to get under your skin. Just know that they aren't the people for you, no matter what the cause or situation. Sometimes life happens and gets in the way of people who truly don't benefit or add value to your own personal experiences. I've learned that the hard way.

On another note, I'm very happy to hear that you are enjoying your new sessions!!! Kudos for going in a new direction to enrich yourself!!!

:0)

AMP