BPD / SSRIs and memory

I am having problems with short term memory and i dont know if its because of the flouxzine that o have been on for the past 8 weeks or because of the bpd or if i am just losing my mind????
For example, i went out for a family meal on sunday, we sat in the bar for the first half hour before having the meal. After the meal we went into the bar and my daughter said "shall we sit where we sat earlier?". I looked at her like she was mad as i didnt reconize the bar at all and really thought we had gone into a different part of the resturant with a different bar. It wasnt untill about 15 mins later that i remembered being in there earlier - got to say that was scarey! I have suffered from depersonalisation many times but this was not the same!
Today, i tried to get out of my car but i had forgot to take my seatbelt off!! I then realised the car was moving because i forgot to put the handbreak on! So i put it on, took my seatbelt off and then when looking for the keys i realised they were in the ignition and the car was still running!!
Looking back sounds funny now, but its also scarey. Almost like my brain is mixing up the order i should do things.
Keep forgetting things at work to, conversations, if i sent emails or not etc. I told my boss i think its the pills as he knows i am taking them for depression bit i still havnt managed to tell him i have bpd yet.
Can someone just tell me this is a side effect and im not going mad please?

Hi! I think you need to tell your doctor about this, it's dangerous even if it's not a side-effect of the meds. Maybe someone else has been through this too, you could ask in more forums, if you like.
You will tell your boss that you're BPD when the time is right, don't worry.
How are you doing? Have things been ok, these last few days?

Hi thank you for answering my post.
I am ok ish although i did self harm today and enjoyed it! Which i am feeling bad about but no one knows i have gone back to doing that.
Thing this memory thing is more like confusion as i couldnt think who i was suppose to give way to when driving round the round about yesterday.
Its scarey but sometimes im ok and just hope i will get more ok. I told the doc about the brain zaps that i keep experiencing but not the confusion as i am scared he will take the pills away and they are stopping being totally depressed so i guess i have to live with the side effects.
I told my boss to about the bpd on an email as i cant do face to face communication. He asked what it was and i have told him to google it - just hope he doesnt pick a site that says we manlipulative etc. But he says he will not judge me. Glad i finally told him but scared at the same time as i have no real friends apart from him and one other work colleugue.
Scared that he will see that people with bpd selfharm and scared of the reaction to that because i always hide that part from the world and feel rather ashamed that thats what i resort to to feel relief.
I lied to the doc, well wasnt really a lie in my brain as he asked about suicidal thourghts and i said none but i didnt reveal the overwelming urge to self harm.

You might have to tell the doc about the confusion, what if you have a car accident? I don't mean to scare you or anything, but it's important. Maybe you just wouldn't drive until it goes away or you figure things out.
You had a relapse with self harm, it's ok, you will get stronger and the urge won't be as strong anymore. Try to control it, you could rub an ice cube on your skin, use red marker on your skin, tear something up with your hands, anything that helps.
I hope your boss will be nice about it and not judge you for having BPD. He must be smarter than some of the mean sites.

Hey,

that sounds pretty scary, I find that happens to me all the time too. Im not on meds...but debatably should be... however I find that little parts of my day like the example of you forgetting you had even been to the bar, occur regularly for me. As weird as it is its nice to hear that I'm not the only one. Its like my brain blacks out for a while and my body has been moving but my mind my soul and my vision was somewhere else. Its like when these moments happen that we are taken back to another world. An alternative reality

Went back to the doctor today as really found it difficult to function at work. Things that used to be easy i just couldnt work out today and the "brain zaps" have been constant and driving me mad!
It scared me that people might notice that i was acting weird, staring into space etc.
I tried smoking weed at the weekend hoping it would help but it didnt!
Anyway blood pressure was high today so he has told me to stop the floixzine (prozac) and given me citalopram instead. He asked if i had any suicidal thourghts told him no but he didnt ask about self harm and i never told him - was too ashamed to.
Anyone tried citalpram?

Oh, I hope the new med helps. It will get better eventually, I know people who are doing ok thanks to their meds and therapy. You could start a thread about the new med and ask, if you want.

I just stopped taking Prozac, I took it for four weeks and it made me suicidal. I just switched to Lexapro last week. I have taken Lexapro before and had good results, however, it is an expensive medication. So last year I switched from Lexapro to Citalopram to save money. I only took Citalopram for a couple of months, because it had the effect of making me not care about my life. I wasn't depressed, I was just indifferent. However, I had a friend that switched from Lexapro to Citalopram and it worked very well for her. Good luck with it, I hope that it works for you.

I've had some pretty extensive symptoms of short term memory loss as well. As you said I forget places I've been, things I've done, and things I've said or heard. Often even upon people reminding me of what I have supposedly done or has happened I still wont recall it and have to take their word that it actually occured. It's pretty frightening and I'm worried that perhaps it's a precursor to some thing serious. I haven't mentioned to my doctor as I fear I may come off as a attention seeker and hypochondriac. I'm hoping it's due to some sort of damage caused by chronic stress, mental illness and medication as well as over-medicating. I'm twenty, so it's definitely not due to aging. It's very frustrating and makes me feel/look very stupid. I want to go to university but I fear with my memory I won't be able to keep up with the demands. Unfortunately there doesn't seem to be any real studies on the long term effects of anti-depressants, though there are reports on the internet from individuals that are experiencing the same thing.

Also another symptom I've experienced with cymbalta is not being able to get the words from my brain to my mouth, I abruptly stop mid-word or before a word and I'm not be able to make it come out of my mouth as if there is some loss connection. I've never had such issues before and it doesn't seem to be caused by anxiety. There have also been reports on this symptom from others, but of course no scientific journals or studies describing it. I've since discontinued Cymbalta and switched to Well-butrin, though unfortunately it isn't potent enough to make a significant change in my depression like Cymbalta.

Many anti-depressants have what is called anti-cholinergic properties which effect your cognitive function, from what I remember MAOI's are the only antidepressants without anti-cholinergic properties but feel free to correct me if I'm wrong. I'm considering switching to them but wary of all the supposed side-effect and precautions that must be taken.