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I feel so ugly. No-one wants me. I have absolutely no confidence tonight. Zilch. Nothing. I'm just a phoney, a mask. When people get to know me, I repel them. I repel men. I just want to be loved.



Some days I can have so much confidence, but days like this...nothing.

Does anyone else get this?

My highs and lows are just as extreme, and can change in a second. There are days when i feel like i can conquer the world, and two minutes later I feel like a worthless no one that's better off dead.

Are you on any type of mood stabilizers or anti-depressants?

I'm on anti-depressents, which don't really do much... My doctor wants to put me on mood-stabilizers though, because as you've probably seen, my moods are extremely unpredictable and can change in an instant.

Chaudement wrote:I'm on anti-depressents, which don't really do much... My doctor wants to put me on mood-stabilizers though, because as you've probably seen, my moods are extremely unpredictable and can change in an instant.

I'm on AD's and they have started to not really be as effecrtive as I'd like. Everything may change next week, it's hard to say. I wrestle everyday with unpredictable mood swings. It is a pain in the ass, I know exactly how you feel. It's like you have no say in how you should feel, you feel like you should be one way and your brain goes in a totally opposite direction. It's that feeling of no control that bothers me the most.

What about alternartive types of coping. Meditating, yoga, auditory stimulation...have you tried any of those?

This morning I felt like I was invincible, it lasted for an hour, followed by extreme anxiety that I was bad and bad things were coming my way, then depression, then a new set of worries. Constant back and forth, I felt like I didn't know what to expect next. That one hour of feeling invincible was the best. It's amazing how quickly I can go from feeling like I can do anything to feeling like I am completely worthless.

mooshoo wrote:This morning I felt like I was invincible, it lasted for an hour, followed by extreme anxiety that I was bad and bad things were coming my way, then depression, then a new set of worries. Constant back and forth, I felt like I didn't know what to expect next. That one hour of feeling invincible was the best. It's amazing how quickly I can go from feeling like I can do anything to feeling like I am completely worthless.

It blows my mind how quickly I can snap into something else. I wish i could harness that power and use it to snap myself into any frame of mind i want. of course, that would be called a cure now wouldn't it

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-- Tue Aug 23, 2011 9:25 pm --

mooshoo wrote:This morning I felt like I was invincible, it lasted for an hour, followed by extreme anxiety that I was bad and bad things were coming my way, then depression, then a new set of worries. Constant back and forth, I felt like I didn't know what to expect next. That one hour of feeling invincible was the best. It's amazing how quickly I can go from feeling like I can do anything to feeling like I am completely worthless.

HAHAHAHA I've had those days too