a problem with thinking

needadiagnosis wrote:Katana,yep defo over thinking,ha.x im sure I have always been the same,i no I have always imagined conversations with people.i remember that I used to imagine conversations with my teacher at school throughout school. I no I was really unhappy and I was often self harming in different ways.i think I just realised something writing this.im pretty sure that the imagined conversations were mainly about my self harm and food and image issues and talking about the things that were making me unhappy. What im now wondering as im writing this is whether I did this because in my mind I was able to say how I felt and actually be heard,even if only by the imaginary bit of my teacher.maybe it was also because I could get the love,support etc that I wantd from her that way.??? Never thought about it that way before but it seems to make a lot of sense. Also Im thinking that maybe because I never got heard despite how much I was trying to show how unhappy I was I continued conversations like this and just conversations in general. Mayb this why I become so attached to the people l want to care about me,coz of the imagined love and support I get from them,as wel as the real support. Sorry have gone off a bit,i just had to go with my chain of thought for a minute.du think any of that makes sense?x

needadiagnosis wrote:Du know my brain is just constantly thinking...all the time..about literally anything and everything, i constantly imagine conversations with people, almost like role plays, like having imaginary conversations or conversations that i might actually have some point after. I think about thinking, i think about thinking that im thinking...etc etc etc...it all gets pretty confusing. I sometimes wonder if i am the only person who can think in the whole world, that no body else can really think...how can they when i cant hear what they are thinking??...no one can prove that any one can think...here i go again...thinking!!! So much of the way i think is so wierd, so random....

And then if i find myself not thinking i then think about why i was not thinking in the first place and then i will think about why i was not thinking....argh!!! wish i could stop thinking...just sometimes at least....

Can anyone relate to this?? Is this normal...it doesnt feel like it is!x

needadiagnosis wrote:Haha wierd fishes, does it drive u mad 2? I wish there was a pill to just switch it off for a little break every now and then. Its wierd though,bt even though it can drive me mad at the same time its like I NEED to be like this. Ive got a number of theories for why, bt to be honest I dont quite no. I hate the mind!x