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What kind of psychosis do you have?

I have more delusional types.

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I have no experience with hallucinations. Like I said, I'm a delusion gal.

Are you on any anti-psychotics? They could help a lot with psychotic symptoms. I'm not a fan of mine so I'm planning on getting off, although I'm wary of returning delusions.

kanin wrote:I think it might be stress even though I can't feel it. Also possibly the insomnia.

it's all kinda interconnected really. The stress (HPA Axis) releases excessive cortisol, epinephrine & norepinephrine that keep you stimulated and aroused so sleep isn't forthcoming (insomnia), and insomnia is the primary cause of the hallucinations.

On a note about hallucinations and insomnia; I recently read of a study that suggested that the vast majority of "UFO Abductions" were experienced by people that had been through a long period of sleep deprivation.

Also search You Tube for "Michael Shermer; abducted by aliens"

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Gna build myself a tinfoil hat then!

I suffer from auditory & visual hallucinations and paranoid delusions. I'd say, they come on the most when something is bothering me. For example, I had something bad happen 2 nights ago and I started hearing church bells. I felt as though they were telling me to pray (I'm not religious whatsoever) so I prayed many times that night. I also hear people yelling at me to "STOP" when I'm obsessing over something. I'm so used to this that I find it normal and it doesn't phase me. I hear people incorrectly and get offended by what they say because I've heard something completely different.

As for the visual, it's kind of hard to explain. I will see a person or a car I think I recognize. I'd positively know who it was, get angry because they lied and said they were somewhere else ( I call people hourly so I always know where they are and what they're doing).. but then it gets a bit blurry and transforms into what or who is really is. For example.. I could see my Mom walking.. I stare for about 3 seconds and then the transformation happens and I see it's actually a man (and no my mom doesn't look like a man at all..lol). I'm pretty used to this too. I don't even mention it to anyone anymore because it's just a normal thing in my life now. I have many other things like seeing birds flying past me.. seeing animals run across streets. I don't know.. it's not that awful I guess.

The paranoid delusions are what cause me the real problems. An idea pops into my head, I take it as a fact. I accuse people of things that make no sense. I think things happened and they are impossible. People don't have such a good reaction when I accuse them so it causes a lot of anguish for the both of us. I was convinced this morning that someone changed to touch pad on my computer because it made a different clicking sound. I also think people sit in my car while I'm asleep and change the rims on my tires. I think my fiance's father has installed a program on my computer to see everything I type and do.. I've learned to not care because I don't give a ###$ about him. I think army men are on roofs at night with rifles trying to kill me as I walk past (I've had this delusion for almost 4 years.). I think everyone is lying and out to get me. I think things have hidden meanings and codes. I HATE the paranoid delusions SO MUCH!!!

I have psychotic episodes I'd say.. every 2-3 months and they last about 2-3 weeks at a time. The rest of the time I just see/hear/think those things occasionally. It may be more often but it doesn't bother me and I don't even notice.

I hope you start feeling better..believe me, I know how hard it is. If you want to ask me anything.. feel free to. I've been having paranoid episodes for at least 4 years.

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I am posting in response to this because I was just informed by my psychiatrist this week that what I have been experiencing for the past few months has been psychosis. Perhaps not so ironically, I had no idea.

The way I experience psychosis follows a predictable pattern:

1. I start to feel weird. An undefinable, unexplainable weird. Almost like being on the edge of something, about to fall off. A sensation akin to venomous irritability, but not quite. It is accompanied by a strange mix of sedation, almost of predation -- like I'm waiting for the world to implode around me.

2. The colours and sounds of the world become very intense. I am easily distracted by everything.

3. My speech and thoughts fly incessantly, whirling off at the slightest provocation.

4. I want to do a million things all at the same time -- and end up doing nothing, staring into space.

And then the paranoid thoughts start to come.

I begin to believe everything is possible. I await the apocolypse. I believe the sky will part and aliens will come through it. I believe the dead people that I have known can be around the next corner. I believe I am mindless, souless. I believe the world is blackness, and dead.

Then, I forget my name. It's hard to connect the room around me with any sense of identity. I usually end up touring through my room, looking at the things I own as though I am in a museum, touching things incredulously, wondering at the absurdity and strangeness of the things I am seeing. Wondering what kind of strange person lives where I am standing.

Etc.