I fit the description of all 6 personality disorders

hmmm so I really fit the description of all 5 main personality disorders... I really think it all comes down to BPD though. am I right???

Ive sat in my basement not picking up my phone for months straight just wanting to be alone(schizoid) so no one can hurt me no anxiety no fear, just me being the best at every video game (OCPD) I've done all i can do to avoid failure and rejection... Ive skipped school just out of fear of being called on and much more of course.(Avoidant) I fear being shamed with failure or not being the best, sometimes i lie to be above other people. (Narc) I feel intense emotions but particularly in relationships, I have to charm everyone so they like me. I hurt my girlfriends who i love more then anything, even though I just want to protect them i end up being my worst enemy. I dont know who I am, im pretty sure i dont have a personality besides being unstable. I feel lonely when no one loves me, I fear being abandoned, ill do anything so it doesnt happen. I send 50k texts in a month trying to fill my emptiness, hanging out with my friends makes me happy but is gone when i leave. (BPD)

I feel like all of these issues really come down to fear of abandonment/rejection and emotional unstability

DoobieDoom wrote:hmmm so I really fit the description of all 5 main personality disorders... I really think it all comes down to BPD though. am I right???

Ive sat in my basement not picking up my phone for months straight just wanting to be alone(schizoid) so no one can hurt me no anxiety no fear, just me being the best at every video game (OCPD) I've done all i can do to avoid failure and rejection... Ive skipped school just out of fear of being called on and much more of course.(Avoidant) I fear being shamed with failure or not being the best, sometimes i lie to be above other people. (Narc) I feel intense emotions but particularly in relationships, I have to charm everyone so they like me. I hurt my girlfriends who i love more then anything, even though I just want to protect them i end up being my worst enemy. I dont know who I am, im pretty sure i dont have a personality besides being unstable. I feel lonely when no one loves me, I fear being abandoned, ill do anything so it doesnt happen. I send 50k texts in a month trying to fill my emptiness, hanging out with my friends makes me happy but is gone when i leave. (BPD)

I feel like all of these issues really come down to fear of abandonment/rejection and emotional unstability

As one brilliant psychologist put it: Everyone has a little bit of this stuff in them, even so-called 'healthy' people. It's only when one or another becomes so extreme that it starts severely affecting someone and their lives in an adverse way that it then becomes an illness.

And some would say, becomes a severe chemical imbalance as well as brain disorder. I say brain disorder as the nature of BPD functions like that of both Major Depression and Bipolar Disorder. Bipolar not really being depression but instead the depression phase is like a hangover from the manic phase. Major Depression and Bipolar disorder require very different medications as the mechanics of what causes them are completely different for the overwhelmingly large part.

As you'd know anti-depressants effect imbalances in serotonin, norepinephrine/noradrenaline and dopamine. Mood-stabilizers effect gamma-aminobutyric acid (GABA), and glutamic acid. Borderlines benefit from both to varying degrees. I've found most respond best to MS's alone, though.

So, BPD seems to mess with them all. That would explain why,.. well, we're so messed up!

Also I believe BPD more than most other PD's overlap with the others. Those with BPD are among the most likely to have a comorbid condition. That is, another PD almost full-on, if not full-on period, along with the BPD. It's like the borderline-chicken and the egg. The borderline-chicken is almost always the one that comes first.

Side note: As one other said, I'm not certain you can be DX'd at you age and it may even be unprofessional for a doctor to due so. One thing I can tell you with absolute confidence though is that you've got something going on. You've given a lot of information, enough that I can say it does indeed look like BPD .. but I'd say give it time. At least wait a year or so before you label yourself with anything. Unless you've already got the DX. If not then let it play out a little...

Oh, and in the meantime--quit getting yourself arrested, [CONTENT EDITED BY MODERATOR].

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DoobieDoom wrote:I feel like all of these issues really come down to fear of abandonment/rejection and emotional unstability

If that's what you feel, its probably right. If there's one thing ive learned is that what you feel is a lot more reliable than any diagnostic description. it doesn't mean everything you feel is "true", what it means is that all your feelings are the most valid explanation for what's going on for you. worry less about whether you fit a dx or not, and get your arse to a therapist, who may or may not dx you, but hopefully will be able to help!

Well im 99% sure I have BPD haha, I've been studying psychology particularly mental illness since i was 15 since I used to play poker professionally, it helped with my game.

Anyways I want to punch therapists in the face when they tell me this bull $#%^ isnt ######6 up my life. My life is hell my emotions are out of control, I cant stand it... I punched the cement wall like 20 times today because my parents took my adderall and my emotions were going up and down like crazy I was getting frustrated from not being able to control it. Note the ups and downs were being cause by the girl im obsessed with... She told me that she likes girls more then boys and for some reason that made me go insane. I sat there with my head down for the rest of the school day punching a wall here and there.

I totally forgot were I was headed with this cause I DONT HAVE MY ######6 ADDERALL.

oh yeah most therapists and $#%^ or whoever diagnoses BPD obviously dont know $#%^ about it... one lady at the psycho ward told me I dont look like I have it.... WHAT THE ###$ DOES SOMEONE WITH BPD LOOK LIKE SORRY I HIDE MY EMOTIONS CUZ I DONT LIKE BEING A BITCH.

DoobieDoom wrote:oh yeah most therapists and $#%^ or whoever diagnoses BPD obviously dont know $#%^ about it... one lady at the psycho ward told me I dont look like I have it.... WHAT THE ###$ DOES SOMEONE WITH BPD LOOK LIKE SORRY I HIDE MY EMOTIONS CUZ I DONT LIKE BEING A BITCH.

Psychology is a guessing game. It's not an exact science. Even if they put you into a category, it's open to change at any time. I've been lots of things since I turned 18. There are a lot of Personality and Mood Disorders that fit into each other just as much people into them. The point, and I say this a lot, is to treat the symptoms, not figure out the exact label.

The labels will change, the versions of the DSM changes the names of the overall diagnoses all the time, but the symptoms will always stay the same. That's the thing you have to learn to treat and cope with.

I studied psychology for a long time. If I had had the patience for the math, I'd have a degree in it by now, but I just didn't. I could care less with the statistics mean and how to derive them. I know the rest, though. I've been to a lot of shrinks, too. I also like to call them shrinks because they hate it, and I don't go to therapy, because I treat myself.

I recommend you stop being so angry, though, Doobie... We know how you feel, we've all been there. We all had to learn to cope.

i relied on weed to cope for to long, i need to learn to cope tis true

I've been there too.
Weed, alcohol, prescription drugs... All kinds of things...
None helped. If anything I think I felt more lost.
I needed a friend.

If you want, Doobie, I'll be your friend.
I know that helped more than anything.
(PM me if you want to be my friend)

Ah yes, you can be my mentor haha

If you want to look at it that way.
I know what you're going through.

If nothing else, you have a whole forum of people to talk to.