No desire to speak..

Recently I've stopped talking. There's 2 people I willingly speak to and that's it. I used to have a few friends but I don't know.. I don't have anything to say to them anymore. I can't make conversation because I'm not interested in what they have to say. If they are telling me something going on in their life I zone out and don't hear a word they say. This continues to happen more frequently. I've been pretty disassociated lately. I feel like I'm in a dream sometimes.

I rarely speak anymore unless someone asks me something. I speak rudely without realizing sometimes and it's easier to just be quiet and avoid the conflict. I used to speak too much.. way too much. So yea.. it's all or nothing I guess. I'm sure my one friend is wondering why I never ever speak to them anymore. Eh I just don't know. Not speaking has been working better for me.

Has anyone else gone through this phase? Did you snap out of it..or did it continue?

Lilycat10 wrote:Recently I've stopped talking..... I don't have anything to say to them anymore...... Not speaking has been working better for me.

I'm curious as to how long you've found yourself feeling this way. I have gone through periods where I'm uncomfortable talking and actively avoid it, but the desire to do so is usually still there. I just find myself unwilling to share because I'm so transparent, someone will ask me what's wrong and I'm sure they'll be washed away once I open the flood gates. Perhaps you've grown stale with these friends and just need a change of venue, for awhile.

Iwoya wrote:

Lilycat10 wrote:Recently I've stopped talking..... I don't have anything to say to them anymore...... Not speaking has been working better for me.

I'm curious as to how long you've found yourself feeling this way. I have gone through periods where I'm uncomfortable talking and actively avoid it, but the desire to do so is usually still there. I just find myself unwilling to share because I'm so transparent, someone will ask me what's wrong and I'm sure they'll be washed away once I open the flood gates. Perhaps you've grown stale with these friends and just need a change of venue, for awhile.

I'd say it's been about 2-3 weeks. I speak a little bit less every day. I guess I sort of have a desire to speak but everyone is so sick of hearing what I have to say so there's no point in saying it. I have A LOT of issues with my Mother and I'm pretty sure no one wants to hear me rambling about it anymore. I feel like an argument starts every time I open my mouth... whether it's me starting the argument or the other person. So for this reason.. I have no desire to speak.

I had a friend that I talked to but she started to annoy me a lot so I don't have anything to say to her. She allows herself to stay in a situation that she's able to change & fix and still complains. I, on the other hand am in a few bad situations that I cannot get out of for numerous reasons. It ticks me off that she complains when it's fixable. My situations are not and if they were I would take the steps I needed to and get everything to where it should be.

I'm fed up with the world...

I've definitely experienced this.
Over the past several years, I find myself speaking less and less... I literally have no desire to verbalize anything. I speak when spoken to, and even then it's often difficult to be courteous and not "short" with people. I've come to the conclusion that this is a result of me limiting my interactions with people and the world in general. (The internet really isn't helping, but outside my small family, the internet is my prime source of socialization.) But sometimes its more than that. Sometimes I find myself thinking, "If I never opened my mouth ever again, I think I'd be OK with that." Other times it feels like I'm mute, or perhaps lapsing into some form of dysphonia. The latter idea bugs me a bit, so I'm making effort to talk, even if I'm just talking to my cats. When I'm not speaking, and just sort of existing, that's when I really start to notice my depersonalization. Cats help.