Sexual Fantasies

i had a strange fantasy once about eating myself stupid, like that obese guy in seven who ate until he exploded. seriously. surrounded by women disrespecting me and forcing me to eat until i can't take it anymore.

every few years i get a strange urge to stuff my face with as much junk food as possible and masterbate. maybe it is related to deprivation or something. pure bliss but i feel guilty for eating so much crap.

It's weird, because I very rarely get actual sexual urges, but I do fantasize a lot....

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Usually they are pretty bad though. I fantasize about meeting scary men. Really dominant, unpredictable but gorgeous men who want to use me, who have weird fetishes they want me to do, stuff like that... sometimes I fantasize about being their slave and dying for them to earn their love. It's weird saying that when i have a bf I adore, in reality those types of men terrify me, but sometimes when he shows that side it actually does turn me on in a weird way. One time he said at least if I'm going to cut, to tell him so he can do it instead and feel in control of it, he was being sarcastic, but I actually went, OK, would you??

Flowergirl wrote:

saralee wrote:I have the same exact fantasies and I also have BPD. I can only get off when I think about my bf with another girl.

I'm exactly the same :/ xx

This too... I feel like he deserves a better girl...