Newbie & an intro.

Hello all, I am new here and it has taken me the better part of the day to finally find this board. But, here I am. Bear with me, because when I get to talking, I cant shut up, lol.
Well, I was told @ the age of 18, that I was suffering from Bipolar Disorder, and the off and on treatment and Dx over the years kept reverting back to Bipolar. Perhaps its because the pdocs would ask me why I was there, and if Ive been evaluated prior to the current visit, and what was my previous Dx. So, it wasnt like I walked in, started from scratch with the new pdoc, and they did their own eval. I basically went in, said I was Dx bipolar @ the age of 18, and well, they took my word for it, threw some meds @ me and sent me on my way. Im 30 now, I went to a new pdoc at the beginning of the month, had 2 visits with her, she did exactly the same thing. "Why are you here?" "What was your previous diagnosis (Dx)?" I mean seriously, I coulda just walked in and made up anything, I coulda been real creative, threw anything at her, and she woulda ran with it. So, I came home, told my boyfriend what had happened, and told him Ill give her 1 more shot, went to my 2nd appt. same ol same ol. Blew me off, didnt want to listen etc....So, I didnt make another appt. with her, and moved on. Saw a new pdoc on monday, it took an hour. He sat and he listened to EVERYTHING, every minor detail, even when It sounded totally ridiculous to me, I still spilled it. I wanted to know what was REALLY wrong with me. He asked questions, I answered truthfully. He said, Borderline Personality. He said he wasnt setting it in stone, but was treating me for it, and wants to wait a few weeks, up my dosage slowly, 2 weeks at a time, watch my progress, and then thats when itll be set in stone, but he favors that Dx moreso than bipolar.
Ive read so much on it, and Im telling you, its me 100%, and I am so ready to get this controlled, well as much as it can be, even though I know it takes time, a lot of therapy & learning to work on your emotions. Im down for it, because Ive lost too many jobs, too many relationships, too many friendships over this. The man I am with now, I love. Honestly, I dont think I loved all the others, what I feel for him, Ive never felt before. He wants to understand me, hes supportive, goes with me to therapy, and hasnt run screaming...But, he needs educated, as do I. Its only fair....So, I hope Im welcomed & respected here. All I ask for. besides being educated.

Hey,

I'm glad that you managed to finally find a PDoc who was willing to listen to you and process what you say. My experiences with PDocs makes me believe that they are overworked and are not the best in their field, which of course adds to difficulties when treating patients.

If Borderline PD describes you 100%, then go along with that. Encourage your partner to read some articles about it. If he is tentative about it, then let him know that you are willing to read some articles he can offer to you in exchange (like a silly interest that he has that you find terribly boring). Trade-offs like this can be both fun and promote bonding in a relationship, and help us get through problems therefore.

Regarding yourself, let this be the starting point of your new life. You have a 'diagnosis' that feels correct, so you must now get on with your life. Learn about BPD and how it manifests itself in you, and through this you'll know more about how you interact with the world. By doing this, you'll learn what makes you happy and what does not make you happy.

Take care,
Kevin