So... I Had A Thought...

So...
I've been thinking about it, recently, and I think my BPD is gone... I haven't had symptoms in long time.
It's not unheard of for someone to recover from BPD... it's just not particularly common.

I'm still Bipolar II to hell, but I'm on medication for that... so it's getting easier everyday... but... the BPD is gone...
I haven't mentioned it to my doctor yet.
We've been so focused on treating my bipolar that the bpd just got back-burnered and... faded, I guess...

That's scary. I don't know who I am without those labels... because that's who I've been for a long time.
So... who am I now? Who will I be when the Bipolar's under control too?
If I'm not crazy, I'm not me.

we all have insanity in us. the fact that u think u dont just meanz u really do. did i solve ur problemz by telling u wut u wanted 2 hear? ur welcome and just remember: wutevur u want 2 b real iz in insanity.

i completely know what your saying. The thought of not having these problems, of not wanting my world to end, of not SI'ing, of being 'normal' it scares me too. I want to get better, but this is who ive been since the beginning. I don't know how to deal with life as someone without BPD. I'm also scared of being left to fend for myself, without the help of my one to one workers, or CPNs.

Well done for getting so far, getting to this stage, just keep going, don't look back, talk it over with your doctor, maybe suggest that you feel your BPD traits have gone, but don't completely cloe the door to having help if it's needed. Thats the great thing about your GP, their there whenever you need them, as long as it's 9-5

Sometimes when you don't think of a problem, and you dont spend all your time encased in it, it can begin to fade, because your not holding on to it anymore, your letting it go, and letting its hold over you go. Sometimes i think that why sites like this arent as helpful, because your completely wrapped in the pains, and confusion of BPD, your world becomes all about your BPD. Having a break from it, not thinking about it everyday can be the way forward, as long as your mind lets you. I have stopped most of my self harming, but my emotions are still up and down and hard to control, so im half way there.

I don't know if what ive said has helped, lol, sorry if it hasn't, but at least you know someone out there is listening.


-give me the rope and let me tie my own path-

because your completely wrapped in the pains, and confusion of BPD, your world becomes all about your BPD. Having a break from it, not thinking about it everyday can be the way forward, as long as your mind lets you. I have stopped most of my self harming, but my emotions are still up and down and hard to control, so im half way there.

Smile - I agree with "a sinking soul" on this. I think this is beautifully said.

I am trying to do this myself, and frankly I still fail sometimes, but for the most part is had been doing me good.

Ofcourse, each day will still have the good and bad moods and the compulsions associated with that. If we continue to appreciate the good parts of each day and maximize the awareness of that, with each passing day, we can make progress.

Its hard to give up being in the "known" zone. The fear of the unknown is a huge blocker. But we will never know if we don't give it a try

SmileXx,

I sometimes wonder about younger people who are Dx’ed with either BPD or HPD. When I read through the criteria for both, I could have easily fit when I was 17-25. It makes me think – and I’m NOT saying your Dx is wrong – that maybe you are Bi-Polar with PD tendencies? On top of that, the awareness and acceptance of your Dx’es has led to you working at being better.

I have a 19 year old daughter. Sometimes, she is off the chain. Her relationship is stable but otherwise, WOW! If I sent her to a Psychiatrist and she was totally open and honest, I have no doubt she would come back with a Dx. And she is mini-me.

I think this is a really good subject!