yep

i have had enough, i feel so tired and worn out and used up. i am having to move house- and the stress and anxiety levels are thru the roof. my head dissociates n just does things that i couldnt do- which i guess most people would say is good- but it leaves me feeling cheated and less certain of what i am (as if i wasnt already totally screwed in any idea of what i am).
but the detaching means that the things that i used to 'feel' have been reduced to mere facts. those things were always memories, and would evoke a strong reaction- but now there is nothing. its like the important things have been taken and seriously sanatised.
i dont like the situation because my head is too fuzzy to be able to work out a solution, yet i have to live thru every experience and memory as facts, i dont have human realitism of it all.
sorry if this doesnt make sense, it never had to i dont think. the writing of this is just another fact
*sad smile* anywho.

I hope that posting will give you some relief.

Peace is possible,
Red