Have no effing clue what to do?!

I'm 16, and i've been diagnosed with OCD for 2 years now and am pretty sure I have BPD, I fit in with most of the symptoms of it and there's no doubt that I have it, or something VERY similar to BPD.

Anyways, i've gone through so many impulsive acts that I've missed half of yr 11, and was expelled from my school, so I couldn't complete yr 12. I'm supposed to be in yr 12 now. I want to go back and finish school next year, and get a job sometime this year, but the course i'll be doing through TAFE (alternative schooling) will take a year and will be full time, just like at school. So it'll be WAY hard to be working, and knowing me and how I change my life goals every 5 mins, i'll probably just either quit or deliberately not try hard in my schooling.

Also, my parents are aware of my impulsive actions, but try to deny that I have BPD. After I went and told them I wanted to go back and finish yr 12 next yr, my dad asked me what I wanted to do AFTER I completed yr 12.
and I have no EFFING clue!

I don't even have anything I enjoy doing, as a kid I used to be really good at music, I've played the piano since I was 7, but I stopped playing it about 3 years ago, and the piano's got sticky keys so it's basically impossible to play, and I used to enjoy reading and writing, and i'm pretty good at english.
I have things i'm sort of interested in, but I won't stay with the interest, and will change it all the time. It's really annoying because I don't know how i'm going to find something I really enjoy and am going to continue enjoying without having to go back through the same pattern of changing my interests!

The same problem is also with my friends, i'll have GREAT friends for several months and then I just get sick of them and want to have different friends with different interest, and become friends with a completely different group of people. It's gotten so bad, that I don't even have any good friends anymore. Well I have one or two, but I don't see them much. Also with relationships, I'll find a fantastic boyfriends and we'll get along so well, and then I'll start becoming jealous and paranoid and start fights with them to the point where the relationships so ruined that there's basically no way of it going back to normal. It's really sad because i've lost alot of great relationships that way.

What should I do? Is there any way I can try and fix this without getting medications or going to therapy? Because my parents won't pay for therapy, they paid for it with my OCD and it didn't do much help, neither did the medications. Thank you

Hey,

Which therapy type did you get and which medication were you previously on? I very much relate to your story, but I'm a few years older than you. You already know what you want in your future - move out, job, etc - but these things will have to wait for the time being. I'd regard getting your school/studies finished as your main priority right now. You can still look forward to the other thing once this finishes, but I believe it is quite important to just get it finished and out of the way. You already know that you will be likely to want to leave if you actually manage to start it, but you can use this kbnowledge to anticipate and then block/put-down such thoughts, which would then allow tyou to continue to the end of the year.

Don't rush into any decision either...and don't rush into growing up too quickly.

Take care,
Kevin