Meds: What have you taken and does it help?

If I hadn't found my current combination, I don't know where I'd be. They enabled me to be even-tempered enough and calm enough to really get better. But I took a bunch of meds that DIDN'"T help enough before this combination. Currently I take Paroxotene (40 mgs.) and Clonazapan (1 mgs. at bedtime if needed). This changed my life.

Here's the list of meds I've taken. It reads like a pharmacy.

Amitriptylene (didn't help...side affects...fatigue)
Imitriptylene (helped a lot, but side effects)
Valium (when I had a panic attack it would stop it)
Senequen (ugh...scary side effects)
Lithitum (felt like a zombie...was taken off of it)
Tegretal (same as Lithium)
Nortripltylene (actually did help about 50%, but just not enough)
Fluxotene (started out working well, then pooped out)
Zoloft (terrible side effects after two weeks, ended up in hospital for monitoring)
Finally Paroxtene (and, no, I didn't think it would work, but it did anyways. I've been on it for at least twenty years.)
Clonazapen (excellent to stop the panic attacks so that they don't even happen anymore and I can get by on one at nighttime)

I've tried herbs and vitamins alone with no change.
I also exercise five days a week...it helps a lot too.

How 'bout you?

I used to be anti-psychiatry/medication and only recently decided to get diagnosed and treated. So I don't have much experience with medication.

I'm on wellbutrin right now and it's a miracle, except for the major crashes that happen sometimes that are worse than the original depression. I'm hoping it'll go away after a dosage increase.

Lamictal didn't do much but numb me out.
Xanax helped the panic attacks.
Risperdal gave me horrific nightmares.
Effexor made me terribly manic.
Trileptal worked until I got tremors.

For one reason or another I never stuck to meds...
I would stop taking them, not tell my shrink that I stopped taking them...
Then I'd take them for a couple months... then stop again...

I hate meds. They don't help me, and if they do something awful comes with them.