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jasmin wrote:Hi, Blix! Maybe it hurts more because of the emotional intensity that she seemed to put into the relationship. I guess we can all become a little co-dependent under the "right" circumstances, even though we don't feel like that all the time. It sounds like she's being emotionally abusive so of course it's going to hurt. It isn't your fault.
DowntownDC wrote:Incidentally, please tell us how you came to realize in only a few months that your ex suffers from BPD. I ask because I lived with my ex for 15 years -- during which time I took her to 6 different therapists -- and was never told she has BPD. I learned about it on the Internet where I found that the classic books on BPD read like her biography.
DowntownDC wrote:Are you sure you don't have some codependency traits? If you have not done so, read about them to make sure....
Blix, all Nons coming out of a BPD relationship are confused and in pain. Some of that pain may not occurred, however, if you were not already vulnerable to it due to pre-existing issues you carried from childhood. Velouria, another Non like you, writes about this very articulately at post326413.html#p326413.
ErrorType11Kid wrote:Unfortunately this kinda of hurt is common with BPD's because while you may have not noticed it but you spent alot of the time focused on her rather than yourself?
ErrorType11Kid wrote:If you have any questions feel free to post them and I'm sure someone can help you along your way.
Blix, as I discussed with DB in another thread, the answer depends on how you define "manipulation." If you use that term to mean your exGF had planned something in a shrewd and calculating way, I doubt she did that. It is possible, of course, but very unlikely. Due to the intense emotions sweeping through them, BPDs typically are very reactive to what they are experiencing at any moment in time.Blix wrote:I think some of this pain comes from feeling duped. ... I read somewhere that BPD's are not manipulative because they don't know what they're doing, can someone touch on this? The reason I don't believe that is because I remember being in bed with her when she said something very suspicious.. she said: "What if all of this is just a trick? It's not, but what if it was?"
Yes, that is bad. Very bad. Yet, if you really felt that way, you would not be here asking the question. Instead, you would be complaining to a buddy about the damn self-centered b*tch you once dated. So don't start beating yourself up for having a cruel thought float across your mind during moments of pain.I'm quickly learning that BPD's (some at least) are narcissists and probably don't regret their actions. I guess what I want to know is, do they get worse after hurting people? I almost wish they do. Is that bad?
crimsonandclover wrote:Sometimes the greatest source is from within. And accepting whats in there.
veloruia wrote:We all have a bit of Smile in us.
onebravegirl wrote:Shine on and Smile on my beautiful 2D pal.
SmileXx wrote:As crazy as she is... you loved her. You know you did.
Blix wrote:SmileXx wrote:As crazy as she is... you loved her. You know you did.
What exactly is your point?
I'm sure some people loved their rapist as well, it doesn't make them complicit.
crimsonandclover wrote:Sometimes the greatest source is from within. And accepting whats in there.
veloruia wrote:We all have a bit of Smile in us.
onebravegirl wrote:Shine on and Smile on my beautiful 2D pal.
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