TW**** The Heart Wants What It Wants ****

My heart has been broken ever since I laid eyes on you...and that was almost 3 years ago. I accept that you will never love me but you will always own my heart as it wants what it cant have and there is nothing I can do about it.

='(

I love you SO much.

I'm sorry... here to talk to xx

Thanks. I posted that in the heat of the moment but after that I was doing okay for a little while. Now, this morning I am plagued by this mana nd I am hurting so much. I have not been on his Facebook since a month now, so I am actually making a effort to help myself but he still plagues my head and all that happened between us.

I feel like 100% trash and I can't help it. I know I'm not trash but I feel like I am. Knowledge is no good when you have BPD.. Well, for the most part it's not because my feelings always outdo my intellect and I am a very intellectual woman. That's the funny thing about it.

It just doesn't work when it comes to love interest. Plus, I am up listening to Nutshell by Alice in Chains. I love listening to them when I'm feeling Depressed but it also makes things worse.. but I feel like Grunge music understands my pain...idk.. and somehow I feel comfortable with it.