Dangerous

Me and my partner are causing each other a lot of pain. We love each other so much but we're triggering each others mental health problems.

We're both having suicidal thoughts and I am acting out due to my eupd, when I am perceiving abandonment or rejection. I smashed a bottle on the ground today and told a woman, who asked my partner if she was ok when she walked off crying, to 'not get involved please' and then said aloud, 'why do women only ever get asked if they're ok, never the men'.

I'm pretty upset with myself, I am not one for smashing bottles around etc and logically I am pleased the lady asked if my partner was ok, if she was in any other situation I would want that for her.

Wish I knew how to make this right for us both, mental health services are not helpful.

Scared for one another and how far we will push each other.

once in rage i smashed a globe on the floor n broke. i tried to join the pieces but couldnt. i still get anger but i try to keep it in control.

i think it would be wise if the two of you maybe on a temporary basis(like for a week) live separately. i did that recently
cause i couldnt stand the other person but living together triggered rage so i moved out.

yeah the missing is there but its important to have some distance so we get space.

maybe one of you can check into a motel for a week just till things cool down.