hello i need a friend

I feel a bit lonely, and I would like it if I made a friend who fully understands me, but at the same time, I rage at the thought of someone understanding me. Also every time I get close to someone I seem to split unknowingly, and never talk to them? uhh


also I'm way too attached to my FP (-:

the splitting is frustrating. its like at times we're obsessed to be unhappy.