jaus tail wrote:i'm actually from india. last year around march end, i flew to germany to do masters there. i got anxiety n got scared of course n flew back to india cancelling my admission there. then now i'm doing masters in india(my home country).
i really dont know what to do with my career. i've done engineering n writing job. n i really dont know now that when i want to apply for job in job portal which kind of jobs should i apply for.
i feel very old doing masters at 28. everyone else in my class is 22/23.
I'm a bit younger but have also messed up and switched studies in the past. 65% of people studying with me (or art in general) have a similar background story of initially fulfilling their parent's wishes or choosing safe profitable options before they gathered courage/finance to do what they always wanted to. Many are starting their second or third degree. I doubt anyone cares.
What I've learned so far -
always finish what you've started, no matter what you plan on doing afterwards. If you're currently in a 'I don't know' state and have no second option you'd rather do instead, then stick with the current one, it'll buy you time to think and keep you productive. Better to be in a state of 'I don't know' while doing something than while doing nothing. These in-between-goal-free-phases tend to swallow people up. As soon as I lose sight of a goal in front of me I go drowning in depression.
Having this degree will also help you 'specialize' and narrow down the job search confusion afterwards.
Anxiety you feel is nothing but a fear of the unknown, the only way to overcome it is by demistifying and turning this course into a soothing happy place of interesting material and folk. You must analyze and engage in order to demistify.
And push yourself to remember why you chose this particular course. There was logic used in a decision-making process and retrieving it will keep you feeling more secure.
I also tend to avoid my own life/crap by offering numerous advice and solutions no one ever asked for so must stop here

but wish you well and hope you make a wise decision.