by thejan » Sun Apr 08, 2018 10:08 am
In my experience, this is completely normal. I used to think this is not normal.
Therapy is very stressful and very hard work for your emotions and your brain. Actually if you feel worse at first, this can be a good sign. It means your brain and emotions are trying to figure out a better way to live. And you can trust that it will get better.
It is one of the things many people with BPD need to learn that things WILL get better even if they seem completely bleak at times. I too.
Have you made plans in therapy on what to do if you feel bleak? If you have made a list with your therapist, this is a good place to start.
One of the things i have learned is that just because you are scared big time, it doesn't mean it is reality.
Feelings influence thoughts. The feelings are real, but the thoughts caused by those feelings are not always real. If your thoughts become very bleak (completely black), they are not a good advisor for your emotions. You could instead ask yourself what that feeling is trying to tell you. Or what the circumstances were which shaped your thoughts.
Dx: Bipolar 2. BDP+HPD. Pathological Gaming.
It takes a long time for a tree to grow.